I am sitting here coming to an end of my 3rd day of sobriety. It's so freaking weird. I went to a 10pm meeting and met some really awesome people. I was invited out afterwards for food and talk. I am nowhere near comfortable enough to share at a meeting, so it was nice to be able to ask questions to a group of guys that understood what I meant. The people in the meetings and on this forum are so awesome.
Today I told the one of my band members what I was doing for myself. I was amazed at how supportive he was. I have only told one of my friends that I was in AA. I am still frightened to tell some of the others, even the ones who have pulled me out of bars to keep me from starting a fight or whatever. I am REALLY scared of this unknown future. At least I have good people on my side.
I am about to lay down and try to sleep. I am hoping it works tonight and I don't pour sweat all night. Thanks again people.
I can promise you that it only gets better and better, if you work it. The early days are rough, but it passes. Keep things simple. I'm glad your feeling the loving support out there through AA. It's a beautiful thing.
So glad to hear your progress Richard. I can promise you there is no need to be scared of an unknown future, because a sober future will always be good, as long as there's no alcohol involved. I'm not saying life will always be easier, but it will be better and so much more rewarding. No matter what comes my way today, I know it won't be as bad as it was when I was drinking. Keep it up and remember...there are thousands of "us" all around that really want to help you make it one day sober.
Day 3! Awesome. I'm glad you got to another meeting and had a chance to talk with some AA folks. Like it says in the Big Book- there's nothing like having one alcoholic talk to another. We can identify with one another even if we wouldn't normally mix. We share a common problem and common solution. This approach has worked when others failed. It goes back to the 1930's and has worked well ever since. Keep coming back and help us stay sober.
Way to go ,Richard,it absolutely gets better.I also have been in and out of bands most of my life playing drums.I actually had to leave a couple bands early on in my recovery to " be free of the environment"(night clubs,smoke filled rooms,after hour bombardments) One day at a time.I can feel your joy ! And to think we thought these were the "square" people ,those who don't know how to party.Nothing like a good cup of joe, sitting around people who honestly working a program of recovery.Only took me 25 years to become a "square"( do they still use that word:)Help keep us sober my friend by sharing your wonderful story of the beginnings of a new life!!
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Selfishness-self-centeredness! That, we think, is the root of our troubles.
Absolutely wonderful! We all do this one day at a time and we all do it together. I have never played in a band, but I pretended I was a awesome guitarist with a pool cue a few times. Glad I don't have to look so silly anymore.... well, at least not drunk and silly at the same time.
Keep it up. This is a great life. I have been here for many 24 hours, and I'll stay here if I remember the 24 hours before I arrived.
Richard, Im really glad to come here tonite and see your post. Thankyou !
Its been a really ruff week for me and I really , really thought about drinking for the first time in a long time.
Your post reminded me of how scarred I was when I first got sober. And it also reminded me that its certainly alot easier to stay sober than it is to get sober !!
That makes you awesome, too! Welcome! Use this board as often as you want to, need to or have to. These beautiful people are my meetings-away-from-meetings. I hope you slept some, and pray you sleep better & better.
For me, the process of prayer & mindful/self-voiding meditation usually results in falling asleep.
Help keep us sober my friend by sharing your wonderful story of the beginnings of a new life!!
