"When I look back on all these worries, I remember the story of the old man who said on his deathbed that he had had a lot of trouble in his life, most of which never happened." --Winston Churchill
I know I can worry myself into the grave. I can project an incident into a calamity. I can make mountains out of molehills.
I worried about what people meant by what they said; I always looked for a hidden criticism; I worried about what people did not say; I worried about what people were thinking or were going to do or were plotting. If I had nothing to worry about, then I worried because I felt I should have something to worry about! I created most of the worry in my life.
Today I have a program that helps me deal with this. Of course I still worry, but I have a "checklist" that keeps me sane and allows me to laugh at the insanity of my projections. Today the worry in my life is less destructive and negative.
Let me bring my worry to You in prayer. Then let me sleep!
I went to a funeral yesterday for a longtimer in my home group. Bill P had 30 years of sobriety and passed on sober. I'm quite new to my home group and didn't know him as well as most there but what I did meet of him i truly liked. he had many, many friends attend his funeral. As I sat there looking around at the many people I got to wondering if, when I go ,there would be nearly the turnout to say good-bye to me. I've burned so many bridges in my past and today honestly have no friends. I have my girls and some of my family that i'm back in contact with , but no friends. Today my Higher Power and myself are my best friends. Today i'm content with that. I also have a sponsor that i'm getting to know.
Bill was full of smiles laughter, humor and was ALWAYS giving and wanting hugs. He will truly be missed. I believe he's in a better place and was welcomed with open arms.
I pray i get to his place in time. Happy, peaceful, 30 years sober and always caring, sharing and giving it away.
When his grandson spoke his eulogy with choked back tears i cried, my grandpa passed away last year while I was lost in active addiction. I didn't get to say good-bye, i love you and he didn't know even if I was ok, dead, or alive. I beleive his spirit is with me and he's smiling down on me today but I miss him. He was the last of my grandparents to go. I remember when i'd go visit him and was getting ready to go, i would put my arms around him and tell him I love him. I didn't really start doing this until the last 10 years or so. He would always tense up, really uncomfortable with the whole scene, i knew this but did it anyways because I really did love him.
I hope he knows I am safe today.
I hope Bill is happy and at peace. Our group really won't be the same without him. My home group usually meets Wednesday nights but I guess is cancelled tonight cause the church is doing the 'floors'.
I was supposed to meet my sponsor for coffee this morning, she never called, must be busy.
I haven't heard from my mom in a while, my youngest daughter was out at my sisters for a 2 week visit that i guess didn't go so well. I had nor have any control over that.
working on my 407th day clean and sober. Thank you for my sobriety and I thank God for yours.
Peace, love and hugs, Wendy ( itried to put this shar in a new topic, wasn't working...hope it's not going to show up twice, guess I'm powerless there too:)
"When you begin a great work you can't expect to finish it all at once; therefore, do you and your brothers press on and let nothing discourage you until you have entirely finished what you have begun." --Teedyuschung, DELAWARE
All things have their seasons. All thoughts are real. We must think to cause action and each action creates results. Big visions require many thoughts. It takes a series of thoughts to create a series of actions. A series of actions creates a series of results. These results are what makes vision become real. If we are here to serve the Creator then we can expect to be accomplishing big visions. How do we do this: One step at a time.
Let me focus on what needs to be done today. Give me clear thoughts to accomplish the results that you, my Creator, would have me accomplish. __________________ When engaged in conversation; do you wait to speak, or do you listen? this is from Elders Meditation, july 20
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Bill was full of smiles laughter, humor and was ALWAYS giving and wanting hugs. He will truly be missed. I believe he's in a better place and was welcomed with open arms.
One of my hobbies is researching and looking for ghosts. I never believed in life after death until I started doing this. I now have total faith in the fact that after the death of the physical body, the soul lives on, I have seen too much evedence first hand to dis-believe anymore.
Your friends are in good hands.
best wishes to you all.
Chris.
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"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music." -- Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989"
Hi Wendy. Great post on worry, and a great share on a heart felt, soul touching experience.
I agree with Cab, all the way re His reply.
There are a lot of things we experience and go through that are unexplainable. Theres always a reason, and I firmly beleive that nothing, absolutely nothing, happens by mistake.
Am going through some stuff right now that blows my mind. Im not analyzing it. Im not questioning it, and to me its unexplainable.
Two days ago I surrendered that one door was closed and accepted it. In those 2 days, my life has gone from what the hell happened, and why me ----to hey!! Heres another door--lets see whats behind it.:)
Have a good 24 guys and Truck On!!
By the way--thanku you all for being here while I was going through some shit. Its over with, lets get on with living!! (Sober)
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