Long time no update...Feeling ok... I wish I could just fast forward sometimes. I hate having almost 60 blowing it, then almost 90 and blowing it. But this time I am determined to try and not blow it again... one day at a time..
__________________
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
What are you going to do different this time?????????????
Unless you change what you have been doing, you will get the same result.
Remember what Yoda said in Star Wars. There is no try there is only do.
Larry, ------------------ Everything you now do is something you have chosen to do. Some people don't want to believe that. But if you're over age twenty-one, your life is what you're making of it. To change your life, you need to change your actions.
-- Edited by Larry_H on Tuesday 11th of May 2010 08:35:37 PM
This time I am going to give everything to my higher power. The only thing I can think of for me "going back out" this last time was being to complacent. I had recently acquired (within 3 months) a new job, relationship and residence. I begin to think I did it all on my own and that I was like a normal person and could handle a beer. I lost the girl again and she is currently back but on thin ice. I realize now the reason things were/are going so good is not because of my hard work but because of what my higher power was doing for me at the time for staying sober and doing the right thing. Now I realize that more than ever and am determined to take this illness as serious as it should be. For me it is life or death. I choose to live and be free!
__________________
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
Hey Steve, keep working it and you'll get it. It took me 2 years of the in and out crap. I finally got tired of collecting white chips. Stay busy in the program and the time will rack up. One day you'll turn around and go where did the last 20 years go.
This time I am going to give everything to my higher power. The only thing I can think of for me "going back out" this last time was being to complacent. I had recently acquired (within 3 months) a new job, relationship and residence. I begin to think I did it all on my own and that I was like a normal person and could handle a beer. I lost the girl again and she is currently back but on thin ice. I realize now the reason things were/are going so good is not because of my hard work but because of what my higher power was doing for me at the time for staying sober and doing the right thing. Now I realize that more than ever and am determined to take this illness as serious as it should be. For me it is life or death. I choose to live and be free!
I love that post. Keep at it SS! Inspiring!
__________________
"You're in the right place. That's the door right there. Turn around."
This time I am going to give everything to my higher power. The only thing I can think of for me "going back out" this last time was being to complacent. I had recently acquired (within 3 months) a new job, relationship and residence. I begin to think I did it all on my own and that I was like a normal person and could handle a beer. I lost the girl again and she is currently back but on thin ice. I realize now the reason things were/are going so good is not because of my hard work but because of what my higher power was doing for me at the time for staying sober and doing the right thing. Now I realize that more than ever and am determined to take this illness as serious as it should be. For me it is life or death. I choose to live and be free!
Steve,
My question still stands
What are you going to do different this time?????????????
You can turn it over all you want but if you are praying for potatoes you had better pick up a hoe.
What is Steve going to do beside turning it over. Don'y get me wrong turning it over is vital to sobriety but by itself it is not enough. God only helps those who help themselves.
What is Steve going to do different??? This is a program of action.
I may be coming down a little hard but it appears nobody has. I care about you!!
I have posted this before but you may want to pay attention this time.
Now down to the Basics of AA. I don't need to know your answers but you do
1. Did you pray to God on the day you slipped and ask for his help in not drinking? I never slipped but I have taked to hundreds that did. If they were honest most said they did not pray that day.
2. Do you have a sponsor of the same sex, one with significant sobriety who has worked all of the steps? Absolutly vital to have one. By the way it does not have to be someone you like.
3. How many meetings have you been attending? For the first 90 days I attended two and sometimes three meeting a day. Sound excessive? Look at #1 above, I have not slipped. The first 90 days start again after a relapse past history no longer counts.
4. What step are you on? During the first 90 days I had completed, with my sponsor's guidance steps 4 and 5 and we went straight into steps 6 and 7. Step 4 is the beginning of the action steps. Until then all we have done is make some decisions. It takes action to stay sober. No amount of deciding to stay sober no matter how honest the attempt will work. We have an AA Waltz 1,2,3, slip, 1,2,3, slip.
5. Did you call anyone for help BEFORE you drank? The telephone is very difficult for Alcoholics to pick up but those that do call someone usually do not drink.
6. Did you get too Hungry Angry, Lonely or Tired, HALT and call someone immediatly
7. Do you really, I mean more than anything in world really want to get sober? If not it just won't work. Alcoholism is a Chronic, Progressive, Terminal illness. Chronic, it can't be cured. But all symptoms go away over time as a result of not drinking and working the steps. Progressive, it gets worse, if you live long enough you will want to quit more than you wan't anything in the world. Terminal, We all die with Alcoholism but those that continue to drink die from it in addition to with it. My Brotherin-law died from it. Not a nice way to go.
Bottom line is if you want what we have and are ready to go to any lengths we in AA have your solution.
Larry, ------------------------------- "Do-so" is more important than "say-so."
