Have been doing some inventory today, on anger--stuff that lies just beneath the surface, and sits there just waiting to be unleashed--trying to identify it, in the different peices that there are there. Never knew there was much there, but Im starting to find out the hard way, that there is.

In A lot of periods in my sobriety, Im finding that instead of releasing any anger, that cropped up--in a positive calm manner, I would stuff it-try to shrug it off-or just not let myself get angry. (On the outside anyways) itwould pile up--cause stages of depression-and then, there would be a trigger of some kind, where I would get angry about something, and it would all come pouring out, at the wrong person, at the wrong time--and usually it didnt have anything to do with what I was angry about at the time, whatsoever.

Im also realizing that this depressed anger usually time bombs with those that are close to us at the time. They call it scape goating.

All of it just comes pouring out with no control whatsoever, until the anger tank is empty.

At the time I can justify it--but its nothing more than another form of unleashed insanity.

When the tank is empty, I realize whats happened. Guilt and remorse sets in, and I  go into a depression over it, and try to fix the damage caused, then its a -- start putting anger back into the tank, which is nothing more than being angry at myself.

Just sharing with you guys. How do you deal with your anger, and can you identify with this stuff?