Not usually lost for words. I used to use this board a lot to vent feelings, and concerns--learning how to be a better person, husband, and a better human being, than I used to be.
There were times when this board actually saved my life as I went through depressions, medical stuff, and marriage stuff. I owe a debt of gratitude to those that are here, and have passed through in the past.
At present I hafta share how I feel--not looking for sympathy-just somewhere to vent.
I feel alone. I feel emotionally beaten into the ground.
Im in a situation where promises were made-comittments were made--forgiveness was given, and I was told that no matter what we had to go through, we were going to get through it all together. No quitting--no giving up.
Yet 3 arguments in 6 months, and I sit here, alone again, and ask myself why?
What happened to the promises, and the comittments and the nomatter whats.?
Im quite capable of forgiving other peoples actions--Why is it that they cant forgive mine.?
Let go And Let God? I try to do that each day.
I try to look for answers, and I try to do whats right.
Sometimes I screw up. Im human. I apoligize for my screw ups, and admit when Im wrong.
I realize that over the period of the next two weeks situations in my life will get back on track, or they wont, and I hafta put that one with God, and His will for me.
I guess I just hafta leave it with Him. Thats all I can do.
Thanks for being here.
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
I don't know what to say. I feel for you. I wish I had some answers, but right now I don't.
From a woman's point of view, we can forgive but we don't really forget. At least I can't. Whenever something happens in my relationship, I tend to go back to the place where I feel inadequate. My only recourse is to walk away for awhile til I know I won't bring up past pain. You are human, and you shouldn't have to pay for the rest of your life for past mistakes. And I try daily to remember that my husband is human, and so am I. But sometimes the pain from the past can't be overcome by a sorry...and that's where I'm at. My sponsor suggested marriage counseling. We'll see.
I don't have any words of wisdom, you are much further along in sobriety than I. All I can say is we're here for you, vent away. I'll say an extra special prayer for you and yours. Keep the faith. I know somewhat how you are feeling, i've been trying to let go and let God lots lately...i seem to keep taking it back, about as fast as i'm trying to let go. I won't give up. Today I'm not a quitter. God has a plan for us all, it's not always what we want but what we need. Know that His strength is in your heart.
If I didn't feel a pinch..then I wouldn't feel a kiss. I really try to remember this. I have to feel the pain, so I can feel the love.
