I'm just completing my fourth week attending AA meetings and it's been great and I'm starting to see change.
The first thing I noticed was that I am no longer feeling quite as much a newcomer. I was at a newcomers meeting on Tuesday and there was one person there for the first time and one person who was coming back after a relapse. They were both at pretty low bottoms. I realized that only a few weeks ago I was in a similar situation, but am now definitely in a better place. I can feel sanity beginning to be restored. Seeing the new people come in provides a great reminder of what could happen if I don't continue moving forward with the program.
Another thing that has happened this week is that I have really started connecting with some of the regulars who have a good deal of sober time. I've been pretty quiet at meetings, basically just coming and listening. But some of the gentlemen have noticed I keep coming back and are acknowledging me and including me in their conversations. Some have even pointed out changes they've noticed. And I've had several ask me about working on the steps and asking if I've gotten a sponser.
Anyway, I've felt this week has been a little bit of a milestone in my AA journey, so thought I would share.
Sid
-- Edited by Sid on Friday 16th of April 2010 06:48:14 AM
What a great feeling that is. I have been going regularly to meetings for over 2 years now. On my second meeting a guy told me I was not longer new....just a regular now! AA meetings are so comfortable to go and sit and know that you are important!! The new people really help to keep me sober. And watching them change is a miracle! Keep up the good work Sid. Your an inspirations!!
I went to a meeting Thursday that's become a regular meeting for me, and the secretary of the group has also seen me at a couple of other meetings in our area. When I came in Thursday he said, "Hey, I was thinking about you! I didn't see you at the Saturday morning meeting and was hoping you were doing OK!" I explained that I had to get to a different meeting on that Saturday because of my work schedule, and thanked him for thinking of me.
It was a cool realization, like: "Wow, people notice when I don't show up for whatever reason, and hope that I'm OK."
It's my new sober community, much like this is!
M
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