Ive been away from the board for a while. Its great to see all the newcommers and oldtimers here.
At present, things dont look that great in my life, and its called the big word "Expectations"
Its very easy to get away from the network of the fellowship of AA in our lives, when everythings going good.
But its teaching me that even when things are going great, I must stay close to that network. Its a daily life line.
At present I sit alone, in front of this computer, waiting for a taxi to take me to the airport, in 5 hours.. for a 2 hour flight to take me back to where I live.
Im numb with sadness, and if Im completely honest with you... Im depressed. I know some of you on the board very well, as you know me, and we know a lot of what each has been and are going through.
All I know for sure..today..is "Im a recovering alcoholic, and Ive got to turn my will and my life over to the care of God, as I understand HIM" on a daily basis, and trust in Him for guidance.
Right now I feel lost. Ive been that way before. In another tunnel of darkness. But I have HOPE. Without it we have nothing.
Thanks for listening. I wish you all a good sober day. Phil
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Hey Phil, I'm so sorry you are going through a tough time. But I must say I'm so glad it has brought you back to us. Keep posting and we will get through this together my friend. there are some great newbies and the same wonderful oldtimers. Hey maybe some of the other guys will check in more often now that you are back. I've really missed you ! God's with you !
You've been in my thoughts and prayers all this time. I will say an extra prayer for you today.
I've really missed you here!!!!
I know what you mean about being away from the program...i too haven't been going to very many meetings lately. I'm going tonight though....no time like the present to get back on the horse.
God will bring you through it, have faith, I have faith He will and I have faith in you!!!
phil sorry things are allittle tough right now i missed you when i first came in here you were such a big help as all here are . keep posting again i missed u god bless u wagon
Glad to hear you are on the way back in and heading for home. Everything will be ok, Phil. Seems gloomy, plans come unstuck sometimes...but hey, you only need look back momentarily to know there is nothing life can through at you, today, that you can't handle. You have climbed some huge mountains, scored some great goals...you play on knowing you have a team here no matter what happens.
Stan was asking after you too. Several times. I am quite worried about our mate to be honest...Have received no confirmation that he is ok, since the bombings. And he was in regular contact until the 30th, chatting about being accepted to uni and leaving in 3 weeks. Have sent 3 messages since, asking him to let me know he's doing ok and there has been no reply. I have never had his number Phil...Would you please ring him and let me know whether he is still stirring them up over there? If he is fine...just tell him the Aussie says he is a right selfish sh*t and should squeeze a meeting into his uni schedule. If not...well, I'm praying he is just being self focussed, to be honest.
All the best and btw...you are allowed one down day. If you are not back stirring me up by the end of the week, I may have to send in the big boys to play pillow wars with you.
I'm a new guy here and have been sober going on 7 weeks. My prayers are with you my friend. I'm sorry you're going through a tough time right now. Maybe it's easier said than done but "Let go and let God"
Welcome back Phil, great to have you here again. Hope things get better for you soon.
Best wishes.
Chris.
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"Computer games don't affect kids; I mean if Pac-Man affected us as kids, we'd all be running around in darkened rooms, munching magic pills and listening to repetitive electronic music." -- Kristian Wilson, Nintendo, Inc, 1989"
