Hey, The bank denied us financing for the house we wanted. Boo Hoo. I would have denied us too.
So anyway, while my wife was pretty disappointed...I was like "Meh. God took that piece out of play for a reason. Why? How the hell should I know...I'm just another piece in play. As soon as you're ready...let's talk about Plan B."
So I'm grafteful for disappointment. Why? 8 months ago my drunken thoughts would have taken me to drunken deeds over something so easily accepted. Now, my sober thoughts take me to sober deeds.
So we discussed plan B. It involves lots of hammering, drilling, sawing, plumbing, wiring, digging and some concrete work. Meh. It's the least I can do for a woman who's about to squeeze a grapefruit-sized human head that has 1/2 my DNA out her vagee-gee.
Probably 99% of my problems come from me placing "values" on things, "This is good", and "this is bad", when the truth is my fourth step proved to me beyond the shadow of a doubt I don't know what's best for me.
Everything I have ever said "this is good" has had unforeseen complications that caused me harm (and jail time and STD's) and everything I have ever said "This is bad" has had good repercussions (like finding a new job, getting sober etc)
Now I look at "bad" as usually God doing for me what I can't do for myself.
I am my own biggest obstacle and my own worst enemy, my mind is not my friend, so once I get out of my own way and allow life to just happen rather then try to run the show all the time my life ends up better then I could have imagined, whereupon I grab the reins and proceed to F--- it up again until I remember to let go again and deal with what is rather then what I think it should be.
Great Post, looking forward to hearing about said grapefruit keeping you up all night, sleep will become a treasured commodity
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Build a man a fire and he will be warm for a night, light a man on fire and he will be warm for the rest of his life
You know, my Higher Power has never given me more than I could handle. He's allowed me to bite off more than I could chew a lot of times, though, if I wanted to take the reins.
It's refreshing to see a guy willing to go to any lengths to take responsibility for the little bundle of joy he was happy enough to deposit into his woman's belly. You go, Rob! :D