My fight against the false God is working. None of us will ever be the creator. If you think you are or you think you know who it is, good luck with that! Only that which is not created is the creator.
Not too long ago I had an epiphany. I realized that I had been harmed by a man who realized I was about to find out what he did. He explained that if I exposed him it would harm many others. He asked me, please dont tell. I felt the sincerity of his plea. I felt love from him. I could then forgive it all. I gave love in return. I knew in my heart I had done the right thing by keeping the secret.
Today I heard more on NPR about the Catholic Church in Ireland and the court battles winning against the Church. The secular has over powered God as have I. Please dont tell! We can be friends. Apparently God is guilty.
Aloha SC...Interesting thought and perception. I think a time or two blaming was convenient for me until I got into recovery. It was then that I had to take my own 4th thru the 9th with all fingers directed back at my self. It is my guilt that I have to exorcise and mine only. As a drunk and a Catholic too I did somethings that were really painful. Some of the amends are slow in coming because to do so without compassion and empathy the pain would only grow and continue. I let the experiences of those who have come before me lead me. I won't do this alone.
The Creator needs me changed and within that change sober.
I dont believe God is guilty for anything other than giving man free will and that is a fact nothing he should feel guilt from. People are good and bad, they choose to be, not God.
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God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference.
