I know it says in the Big Book that we are people who would otherwise not mix, but boy... I so appreciate going to a meeting and seeing people of different ages and backgrounds really relate to and care about each other. The meeting I went to last night was fantastic. I was initially disappointed, thought it would be too small, too old and too young. It was just me and a women who has been helping me a ton (I think I may change and have her for a sponsor), a 25 year old guy and two older men (one probably in his 60s and one is his 70s). Anyway, boy was my first thought wrong. We had the best conversation after we all shared. I really felt to connected to everyone there. And hearing the older men talk about relating to pain they saw in me the week before... it was fantastic. Just seeing guys my dad's age talk about their pain and struggles helps since my dad and I don't share on that level. Got me thinking that maybe that's how I'm gonna see my HP, thought all of the wonderful people I'm meeting in AA. Also makes me think that God is watching out for me by giving me a fairly high bottom. My friend said I talked a little too much about killing myself if I felt like that again. Of course I remember very little from that evening, large portions of it were blacked out. Anyway, I think of it as a huge blessing. AA is an amazing group of people. I'm starting to think being alcoholic is a blessing! (Did I just say that???)
-- Edited by runnergirl on Saturday 6th of March 2010 03:26:06 PM
That's the way a higher power came to me too....through meetings and seeing recovery in AA in action...through time it just grows stronger and more personal. I love this share Laurie. Your willingness and open-mindedness is going up and that is so crucial to this program working. A miracle in progress you truly are.
Mark
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I felt the same way after my first meeting...I never would have guessed that regular people were as screwed up as me...lol. It deffinatley helped put things in perspective for me.
Your Post brought a little sunlight into this grey day, your last line in your Post, "being an alcohol is a blessing" Yahoo, and yes indeed it was you that said it...
So very happy to hear all this good news. Sounds like great Step 2 work to me...
I have found some really good friends in the AA program. A few sleezbags. But, got to toss those to the curb & move on! LOL For the most part once an alcoholic starts to recover they are more open & honest than most non-alcoholic people. Everyone has defects. It's just the non-alcoholics can handle those defects in more positive ways than a practicing alcoholic can. JMHO
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