I have posted Step One on the step boards and am hoping to get a little more traffic on this portion of the MIP web site. I am a double winner, though I have not posted much here on the AA site. I have gone through the steps once and am preparing to take my second round through them. I see newcomers on the step board who don't get much attention. I am hoping we can start to be there for them and offer our Experience, Strength & Hope. Please feel free to join me.
Tricia, I just posed on the Step Board after seeing your message. I am fairly new to this site, and I had some trouble getting onto the Step Board a few weeks ago. Turns out that I had to register again, even though I used the same name & password as I do on this one. Now I can access it just as I do this board. I hope others will join in the discussion.
-- Edited by murrill on Sunday 28th of February 2010 01:24:51 PM
Step one continues to grow for me. I have found that there are surrenders beyond surrenders along the spiritual path.
The mechanics of step one are pretty clear. When I drink I can't stop, the craving described in the DR's opinion describes me perfectly. My mind can't recall the consequences I have suffered, I drink again, no matter what. I have lost choice, power and control. Pages 23-43 again describe what happens to me, the insanity PRIOR to picking up the 1st drink that activates craving.I will never regain choice. Left to my own devices I will drink myself to death, or put a bullet in my head to stop the noise.
Underneath all of this is the spiritual malady, booze treats this internal discomfort remarkably well, the trouble is that it will kill me, and my mind seems to forget this, I have strange mental blank spots.
There is nothing I can do to keep myself sober, meetings, sponsors, etc.. Beyond human aid. My only hope is the maintenance of my spiritual fitness. God alone keeps me sober, it is up to me to take actions to remain connected. I am of the mind that hopelessness is a prerequisite for step one, anything more than two options and I will waffle and not do the work.
-- Edited by Rob B on Monday 1st of March 2010 08:34:35 PM