Yes, I know I should be referring to yoga or running or something. I'm doing all that and still thinking about how I can feel good. Just curious if any of you sobered up from alcohol and then moved on to other things like Rx pills. I'm not intending this, if I could get to more meetings I know they are like a good buzz for me. Going tomorrow night. Guess I need to find a way to get to more. I'm beginning to get the whole idea of this program... And why your spouse needs to be on board. Who has a cyber hug for me? :)
1 cyber hug coming up. You will find a niche. Part of the fun is looking. It never ends. What do you love to do that is non alcoholic? Music? Art? Working out? Surfing? Skiing? Cooking? Writing? Helping others? Reading? You no longer have alcohol to hold you back if you can keep the program front and center. Tom
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((((((Laurie))))))...There you go!! Cyber hugs and a suggestion? Just for today live thru this one day only. Take the idea of face to face meetings for the next 90 days one meeting a day and then see what else comes up from the program. AA is a substiution for drinking and a compulsive addictive life style with such a positive consequence that will help you make better decisions regarding other activities and goals.
I've never been able to say "Alcohol gone" with confidence. Not the way this disease rides my butt. I am not ungrateful for that. I believe it is a part of the design that my HP has for me to stay focused rather than stay dead.
Keep coming back....cyber hugs anytime you want them.
Go find another drunk to work with.
-- Edited by Jerry F on Wednesday 17th of February 2010 12:16:57 AM
Hug delivered. Laurie, see if you can't work it out to just get to a couple more meetings a week. You know now how important this is. I think your willingness will carry you far, but you have already caught on to the "WE" aspect and how that does make things smoother.
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Thanks, guys. Ya, I have no problems with other "activities." I'm a busy girl and I run a ton (thus the log in name!). I'm getting back into yoga now, too. However, as great as those two activities are, they don't take up the wandering mind. They don't take away the negative self talk and the desire to not live in the moment that I sometimes have. Anyway, I guess I was wondering if it's normal to start thinking of other unhealthy things to move on to. I know I won't... just can't do that. But, it's not completely off my radar if you know what I mean. Anyway... meeting tonight. Can't wait.
Runnergirl, Yes, it's normal to look for anything that will give us relief. I had thoughts of pot, pain killers, relaxants etc.... and I never used drugs that much. LOL To be honest I still do. I'm programmed to seek relief. It's my initial thought sometimes. I call these fleeting thoughts. The key is to not react to it or kick the idea around for to long. It's your diesase testing you. If it gets into your head for to long you'll thing your way right back to drinking. Our diesase wants us dead and will use whatever weapon it has to back us into a corner and kill us. The diesase has no defense against AA. It doesn't want us to go to meetings, work the steps, talk to our sponsor or help another drunk.
The good news is by doing the above the thoughts will be less numerous and less severe and the obession to drink will lift if you do the required work. That's my experience anyway and many more that came before me. For me, AA and the steps provided me with a life that was better than the one I had before, during and after my alcohol use. I grateful for that. If it didn't I wouldn't be here right now.
Meetings, engaging the fellowship of AA, working the steps, and working with others IS the relief from self. That wanting to switch addictions and negative thinking are just garden variety sobriety issues that all go through. Find a beginners meeting to discuss this issues in and you'll find them average.
A Big Hug from me....looking for something else.....made me think about that proverbial box or bandages.....my own little thoughts way back then...you have just ripped off the biggest bandage of all, just for today, Alcohol gone, as in Daily Reprieve....you need something else to sooth the pain that you are stuck with, when the bandage came off. Just as has been stated here.....90 meetings in 90 days, the best known sauve in the world for that painful boo boo....
You also reminded me of the second half of the First Step....
What might help, when they read How it Works, in every meeting, close your eyes and let it just resinate in you....very very soothing.
So happy to see you reaching out, and as in always said, just keep doing it.....and WAIT for the Miracle.
Hey runnergirl,yes hugs((((((()))))))).I spent a lot of time early in my recovery finding 'other things to do' to remove myself from the area!.Just for Today " you can find something,let tomorrow come when it does and that will be another day to find something....Hang in there..This 'THING" IS ALWAYS THERE LURKING,WAITING .LYING AND MANIPULATING, we must be vigilante daily...help someone else there is magic in that!!!
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