Just got home from a meeting. It's funny how change still can affect others no matter how long they have been sober in a negative manner. I hear a lot of people say God won't give me more than I can handle. But what happens when things get out of control? How long do I wan't to control things? How long do I want to be insane? Life can be really rough in early sobriety. I find the answers to most all of my problems can be found in our Big Book. Usually, even if I know exactly where the answers are, I can't find solutions to my problems by myself. Meetings help. Reading helps. Usually the only thing that for certain helps is when I talk to another alcoholic. It doesn't have to be my sponsor either. This board has helped me tremedously in the past. Only by opening up, and becoming willing to change, and believing in my HP, can I grow and develop into the person I want to be. It's kind of hard when times get rough to actually grasp the concept that all I have to do to overcome a situation is pick up the phone and call someone in the program. How simple is that? I can find no serenity until I accept this person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be in this moment. (paraphrased) I am no longer in control. I do the footwork and put the results in God's hands. By no means is my life perfect. It is getting better though, even if at times it seems painfully slow. I have to remind myself that getting sober is a process. I too want what I want when I want it. However selfish it sounds. I want what someone with ten years sober has. I do realize that I have to work for it. Rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path! Anyways, back to the point, I need to go to lots o' meetings! When I do these things (behaviors and attitudes) change for the better with less effort on my own part. I need to start my 4th step. Have put it off another day. I know once I do start it I shall post and hopefully move forward with this whole wreckage of the past deal.
-- Edited by soberdrunk on Thursday 14th of January 2010 10:18:35 AM
Yes, yes they do. You know that you're on the right track and sobriety is in it's proper priority (#1) when you're actively looking for more things to do to Insure your sobriety.
Whatever it is you need to do but keep putting off, bring it down to its irriducible minimum.
Piles of ironing?? Irriducible minimum - get out the iron and ironing board.
Step Four?? Take out a pen and paper.
Before I really got into the programme, I used to bemoan the fact that I could never finish anything. My sponsor pointed out to me that I didn't have any trouble finishing stuff - I had a problem STARTING!!!
Keep it simple guys. and I'm almost sure thats NOT how you spell irriducible????
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Serenity is Wanting what you have, not having what you want
Always remember non-alcoholic beers are for NON-ALCOHOLICS
and I'm almost sure thats NOT how you spell irriducible????