For the first time in 28 years I will not do one or more of the following this evening... Drive with one eye closed. Forget where I left my car. Get in a fight. Embarass anyone with my WhiskeyWit. Spend $$$ and have no idea where it went. Get frostbite on my fingers smoking dope in an alley behind a bar. Wake someone up at 4am to score. End/begin a dysfunctional relationship. Eat strategically to prevent vomiting. Vomit.
And tomorrow morning, for the first time in 28 years I will not wake up with one or more of the following... Excruciating pain. An STD. My face covered in blue billiards chalk. Mystery bruises and lacerations. A list of apologies to make. Vomit on/under/around me. Frostbite from sleeping in my car. Mysterious dents on my car. A smelly stranger in my bed. An empty wallet. A sorry-assed 'never again' mumbled from my bile-covered lips. A mad search for the last beer I hid under the lettuce to start my New Year with.
Thank to My Higher Power Thank to My Sponsor Thanks to AA Thanks to Willingness Thanks to Humility Thanks to You All
If I smiled any bigger right now my head would split open and all the love would spill out at once.
Yes we have a lot to be grateful for. I'm getting up at 7 am tomorrow to go skiing at Vail. Imagine how that would go with a massive hangover and 2 hours of sleep.
New Years Day for me means setting up a new bank account on the computer, and all things considered, I have enough money to last me for the rest of my life, providing I die a week on Sunday!!!!
Oh well, the fridge and food cupboards are full, so I won't starve, and I did say I'd like to lose some weight. Money - who needs it???? That's a saying that them with pots of cash usually come out with.
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Serenity is Wanting what you have, not having what you want
Always remember non-alcoholic beers are for NON-ALCOHOLICS
Thanks for being able to come home in the same state I went out in. Thanks for all the memories. Thanks for being able to look others in the eye without fear. Thanks for being able to say what I mean & mean what I say. Thanks for being able to love others & let them live the life of their own. Thanks for the tact & boundaries I've learned in AA. Thanks for each new day that holds gifts of their own & each being as interesting as the next no matter what date it is! Thanks for the dignity, decorum & mutual respect I'm now able to practice lol Thanks for knowing so much better what IS important today. Thanks for you all being here with me to share the joys & trials with too.
Happy Sober Day. Love to you all, Danielle x
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Progress not perfection.. & Practice makes Progress!
Thanks for that! Thanks for reminding me that I can still have more hell if I choose to drink again.
I also tried the stop smoking thing for about a week. I bought a pack of cigs today. Happy New Year's I'am going to stop setting myself up for the smoking thing just not ready to surrender them.
