Re Phil! xx

Sobrietyspell · MIP Old Timer

Re Phil! xx

Just Toni · MIP Old Timer

Hi Daniella,

Share each and every thought, hope so much too, that he will be back!

I am sure the last months have been so tough, and finally getting back uphill,
Godspeed to you Phil, and please do come back.

Hugs and Prayers going up for youPhil.
Toni

Philip D · Member

Hi Girls..

And yes..I'm humbly back as a newby..

One full day sober...

I cant rely on the past to keep me sober today...

For those of you in service work..

I'd like to share that I went to the top...

And was so involved in it...

That I forgot what it was like, in the beginning..

I fotgot about all the fear of the unknown, the despair, etc.

I had all the answers for everyone...and shared them from the heart..

But I forgot...that I had to keep sharing those answers...and practicing them on a daily basis..

Please...

Whether youve been sober 0ne month or 300 months...

Never take your sobriety for granted as I did, and start putting other things first.

I started putting service work, love life, work, ..all of it..first..

and it didnt work..

I'm 61 years old...

I surrendered to this program at the age of 37..and knew that I was ready for it at the age of 16

We never stop learning..and

We never have it made..

This is a disease, and we are never cured..

We have a one day repreive each and every day..

If I were to add one more thing to this post..

It would be..

Quit trying to control the show..Let a higher Power of YOUR understanding handle it..Do the best you can..And it'll be ok..

Love

-- Edited by Philip D on Monday 23rd of November 2009 08:34:32 PM

jasperkent · Senior Member

Thank you for your share, Phil. You have no idea how much it means to me.

I went to my first AA meeting in 1982. Now I am looking forward to 90 days of sobriety. 'Nuff sed.

Love ya.
Glad yer here.
Keep coming back.

turninggrey · MIP Old Timer

Hey Philip D!
What does not kill you makes you stronger!!! I did about the same thing you did. Long time sober and had a slip that I thought was a vacation, but was actually a nightmare. Welcome back.
Tom

carlasober · Senior Member

Thanks Phil and welcome home!

Wren · Senior Member

Love you, Bubba. Call if'n you need/want to. Always always always here for you, and so very glad that God brought you back to us. Love, Chris

ljc · MIP Old Timer

Thanks Phil, welcome back.

BLUESMAN · Senior Member

Hello Phil good to hear from you
I used to be(Mikey50 ) i am glad you are back

Russell smile

Mike B. · MIP Old Timer

Phil,
Thank you and welcome back!

SteveP · MIP Old Timer

Hey Phil, thanks for being here, and welcome back. I'm in the same boat as you, starting from square 1, Day Uno of sobriety.

I need to tell you that your post the other day helped me to own up on here about my slip. It sounds corny, but it's true: if I hadn't seen your courage as an example, I'm not sure that I could have owned up and got back in the saddle. As a result, I'm not having that first drink today.

Thanks man.

Steve

leeu · MIP Old Timer

There's a wonderful book by Terence Gorski and Merlene Miller called Staying Sober: A Guide to Relapse Prevention. I'm a '47er too, and 36 when finally sober, blessed & graced to still be, but certainly not without struggles and close calls. The steps & the fellowship keep me going, but so does some good state-of-the art education, which I found in this book. I use it along w/the Big Book & the Basic Text, to strengthen my daily reprieve.

Philip D · Member

Just got back in from a meeting..

The words "Humungous overhaul, and reconstruction" ring true..

I never realized till this past weekend..just how insane and sick...a person can get...

I was called a liar...and a scumbug..and a few other choice things..

But you know? They were right..:)

And there really was no defense on my part..

Thats where it takes us..

One day at a time..

I have to find ME again...

I certainly dont like the person that I've become..

And I don't like hurting other people..especially those that I love and care about...

But..I DID...BIG TIME..

Thanks for being here..

Phil

-- Edited by Philip D on Tuesday 24th of November 2009 10:01:58 PM

-- Edited by Philip D on Tuesday 24th of November 2009 10:03:09 PM

angelov8 · MIP Old Timer

Dear Phil, We haven't really met as I am newer here.
I don't care what you were called, or what happend. I am glad you are here today. Your willingness to start over is ...well I have tears. thank you, Angela

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

jasperkent wrote:

Thank you for your share, Phil. You have no idea how much it means to me.

I went to my first AA meeting in 1982. Now I am looking forward to 90 days of sobriety. 'Nuff sed.

Love ya.
Glad yer here.
Keep coming back.

me too, my first meeting was in '75 (15 years old) but I didn't "get it" until '89. The second half of those 15 years inbetween really sucked. Thanks Phil, your experience is valuable for all of us. Don't let the time thing work against you. You still have 20 something years sober, that didn't go anywhere and is blessing. Look at this as a small interuption and continue on your journey.

jj · MIP Old Timer

so glad to have you here again.

cooncatbob · Senior Member

"Then drew near unto him all the publicans and sinners for to hear him. And the Pharisees and scribes murmured, saying, This man receiveth sinners, and eateth with them. And he spake this parable unto them, saying, What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost, until he find it? And when he hath found it, he layeth it on his shoulders, rejoicing. And when he cometh home, he calleth together his friends and neighbours, saying unto them, Rejoice with me; for I have found my sheep which was lost. I say unto you, that likewise joy shall be in heaven over one sinner that repenteth, more than over ninety and nine just persons, which need no repentance."

Welcome Home Phil.

Dave Harm · Senior Member

Phil,

Started in 1986, knew it all that by 1992 I was drunk again. Since 1994 been sober. But lately, I know I need a major overhaul, right now drinking isn't a major concern as is my spiritual aspect. I do know that if I lose that I will be drunk again.

Have really been doing some major "soul-searching" the last couple of months and it seems almost on a daily basis, my HP is telling what needs to be done to maintain my sobriety and spirituality.

And today, this thread is part of that message...

In my thoughts and prayers,
Dave

pinkchip · MIP Old Timer

Phil, I joined this board about 1 year ago and have seen you pop on and off at times. All I can say is I think it's amazingly humble and your strength is inspiring to come back in this way. I know you have much to offer here as your name has come into so many threads and you were so obviously missed by others here. I look forward to hearing about your recovery which truly is a day at a time. I know your message is strong based on your experience and in some ways, it might be even stronger now. Bless you and I applaud you for taking the time to work on you.

Mark