Well, after about 5 weeks I feel I've done a very fearless and searching inventory the way the BB says it should be done. I'm amazed at how many things from my past I buried in places I forgot were there. It was a humbling experience to say the least, but I almost feel like all those "dark icky places" that used to be inside me are at long last gone. My sponsor and I started step 5 about a week ago, and tomorrow night after my meeting we're going to sit down and get it done. I thought I would be terrified to share all my resentments, character defects, fears, and secrets with another human being, but I'm really looking forward to getting rid of the garbage. What really amazed me was how the resentments didn't seem as great once I was finally honest with myself about them. Some may say that 5 weeks on 1 step is too much, but any less time and I KNOW I would just be rushing things to move on. It's hard for me to understand how someone can do a TRUE thorough inventory in just a day or 2. Maybe I'm sicker than they are :P. Anyway, I wanted to share and say hi. It's been a while since I've posted, but things here are going really well, and I'm now 7 months and 1 week into my new found life of sobriety. Thanks to you all for the help, support, and love you've given to help me get this far! Brian
Brian, It's great to hear from you! Nice work on completing step 4. Good to see your doing step 5 right away. For me, completion of step 5 lessened the weight on my shoulders. It took some of the bricks out of my backpack. It was a humbling experience but that's exactly what I needed then and still need today. The good thing is the bricks can remain on the ground by doing the work in this program.
Yah LJC...that saying does encompass pretty much everything. I didn't get it at first cuz I was thinking "What...where's the don't drink part?" That would be in all 3 for me...cuz I can't have a relationship with God drunk, my house gets messy both literally and figuratively, and what good am I to others when I'm wasted? Of course I know that saying encompasses more than that...basically a recipe for a good sober lifestyle as well a condensed version of steps 1 through 3 and 11 (trust God), then 4 through 10 (Clean house), and 12 (Help others). Didn't get it at first though.
Also Reffner, congrats on the work! Glad to hear the steps working!
-- Edited by pinkchip on Wednesday 11th of November 2009 09:14:58 AM
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Good to see your doing step 5 right away. For me, completion of step 5 lessened the weight on my shoulders. It took some of the bricks out of my backpack. It was a humbling experience but that's exactly what I needed then and still need today. The good thing is the bricks can remain on the ground by doing the work in this program.