Mornin' Thank You for the warm welcome. When I took that first drink I FELL IN LOVE. I FELT WHOLE. I FELT GOOD. I did not know booze was numbing the subconscious self dislike I had for myself. It took a srong bit for booze to show it's true Face. A Cover up. I needed to be ROCKETED INTO THE FOURTH DEMINSION. No longer could I live. Today I aked for the gift to stay clean and sober.
I relate, Toad. Drink was like a spiritual experience for me or so I thought in not knowing how to be free from bedevilments in me in real life. Today I am freed from that bondage with the Love & Hope I have in my heart for this Higher Power that is within though yet beyond me but allows me access in all its kindness & my willingness. Thank you for showing me your inner dimensions. I love our Steps too. Keep coming back, Danielle x
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Progress not perfection.. & Practice makes Progress!
Yep, can totally relate. For me, and I've shared on this in meetings to a surprising number of nods, the pub was like a space-ship to take me away from life. I used to think that I could handle anything, as long as there was a bar near that anything and I could have that one drink that never just was one drink.
Except that that space-ship was going in fact starting to take away my life and throw me in the trash.
Today for me, the AA fourth dimension is much better. I just need to keep coming back and work the programme to stay in it.
-- Edited by SteveP on Tuesday 27th of October 2009 04:39:24 PM
Well put, Toad! "I FELL IN LOVE. I FELT WHOLE. I FELT GOOD."
Me, too. But it was a lie. A twenty-nine year lie. After 29 years of it I hardly know how to bahave or react or anything. That's where God came in, via AA, and started showing me a new way to live, 12 steps and one day at a time...in God's time and in God's grace.
