I was six years clean and sober when I realized I could feel happy and sad at the same time. For this alky that was almost to much to stand. The long beginning of letting go of my need to control to feel safe. I am still some-what broken, so when I say I am sober by the Grace of God and my willingness to work the steps it humbles me. Living and slowly growing. Toad.
Hey Wayne, Welcome! Keep coming back. We'll save you a chair. Wait a minute...you're sitting in your own chair right now. Never mind. We'll save you some fellowship!
Wayne, Welcome! Humility and Responsbility are key ingredients to success in this program. Remember; sometimes quickly- sometimes slowly it will always materialize if we work for it.
Nobody is perfect Wayne. At least you are aware of your progress. If we all got totally 100 percent better...or cured of alcoholism and everything that goes with it...we wouldn't need to continue going to AA right? I'm trying to adopt the notion that I am perfectly imperfect for today cuz that's all I can handle right now and it's better than what I used to think which was I was a total screw up all the time (that still comes back and I have to actively work to replace it with something more positive). Anyhow, Welcome to MIP! Keep sharing and letting us get to know you. 6 years sober is quite an accomplishment. I know it's a day at a time program, but feeling proud and happy about just staying sober and doing it for quite some time is a good reminder. In the beggining you couldn't string 1 day sober together right? Bet you are a lot less broken now than you were then.
Mark
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
Mornin' I drank to numb the almost subconscious dislike I had for myself. Booze saved me from feeling that. I FELL IN LOVE. Took a fair bit to find out that Love was trying to kill me. Thank You for the warm Welcome. Today I Love the Fourth Dimension of Life. Don't mind getting rocketed into it. Later on then, Toad
Welcome to MIP, Wayne. I love your sharing & your message. God bless you like you blessing us in being with & sharing with us here. I feel a love in you I can recognise in me & God is within us all. I hope you'll stay awhile with us & share in what we can have :) Recovery & Fellowship, Danielle x
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Progress not perfection.. & Practice makes Progress!
It's funny. Early in my drinking career, alcohol was fulfilling all the Promises of AA. When I drank, I was confident, had high self-esteem, and feared nothing.
Then alcohol turned on me. Not only did it break the Promises, it turned them all upside-down and made everything worse. Then much worse. Even after periods of sobriety, my disease told me to go back out and do more research. The results were always the same or worse than before.
A little over 2 months back, feeling my emotions is a rough ride. Anxiety and depression haunt me, but I am getting better One Day At A Time. Sometimes I take a step forward and slide two steps back, yet I somehow continue to make progress. The fact that I am alive at all is a miracle. The fact that I do not desire a drink today is also a miracle.
