For the last week, have been dealing with a lot of strain, more that pain in my neck area from an old injury, and what is really the bigger problem is the insomia that has started coming with it.
The treatments of cortizone shots were discontinued from an allergic reation I had to the med. that was mixed with it. So now the next step is two weeks of 3x a week, PT for two weeks. Traction and message.
Have been using all the Tools, the Powerlessness over what is going on, just one foot in front of the other, and not allowing myself to go into any depression. All the other tools that i use are Meditation tape, relaxation, deep breathing. etc, etc. etc.
It seems to be the only thing that could wake me up so so so early is my own Adrenals being on overdrive, but I dont understand any of this.
Just really needing support and Prayers, and some cyber hugs. Venting is wonderful....
But the good news is I am Sober today, and if I keep that as a little post- it on my forehead, I just might have a good day after all......
Hugs to all, Toni
-- Edited by Just Toni on Saturday 24th of October 2009 07:01:49 AM
Dang Toni. Huge Cyber hug to you...(not throwing my arms around your neck though). Insomnia sucks ass. Praying for your pain to ease up and disipate. Love,
Mark
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Nothing in the world like a warm huggie, and I felt all of um.... this is pretty much exactly what I look like this morning... but Sober is all I really need, did a strool down that old memory, and think I prefer Insomnia to a long solid 8 hour Blackout..........Gotta remember to find something...anything to smile about.......
You guys are the bestest, and here's a big hug back....
Back in the day when I was drinking the best cure I knew for aches/pains, and injuries was to drink. Im very thankful to not be using that remedy today.
(((((((( Toni )))))))))
I can feel your discomfort. Have had a few old injuries/accidents myself and it seems they creep up on/in me from time to time. I will on occasion use heat/ice for 20 minutes at a time , applying them to the affected area's. And I also use otc motrin.
Okay, close your eyes and imagine..no...stop. Open them again so you can read this... Read this, then close your eyes and......
Imagine you're sitting on a short stool. like a milking stool, being hugged by 8 toddlers say...three to four years old. Why? You're giving them EACH a puppy and a pint of orange sherbert! Oh, oh, and one of them isn't a toddler at all, but a magical elf with healing powers and when the hugs are done, you're all better!
Laughed out loud at the close your eyes, No, open them and read this first.
And what an absolutely fantastic visual, how did you know I liked the visual concepts so well.
This one is a Keeper, and the best part, was when I was a child my all time favorite ice cream in the whole wide world was Orange Shebert.
The night before, when I posted this, I had had 3 1/2 hours sleep, but this morning woke up with just under 6 hours.
If you look for the answers, it also amazes me, with an open mind, how yesterday, I had figured out it was my Adrenals that were so active, hence the no sleep, and the Flight or Fight reaction, then Dean writing about the underlying Fear component of all our Problems! Bulleye! I got it, (Thank you so much Dean) you were not writing to me but to someone else, put I put that in my little puzzle and the piece fit perfectly.
I was allowing the Fear of the Pain component of this old injury to over-ride my own Trust in God, so I immediately went to Prayer many times yesterday, and felt better all day, then forgot about the Insomia, and fell asleep last night, with no expectations and no worries.
Okay, close your eyes and imagine..no...stop. Open them again so you can read this... Read this, then close your eyes and......
Imagine you're sitting on a short stool. like a milking stool, being hugged by 8 toddlers say...three to four years old. Why? You're giving them EACH a puppy and a pint of orange sherbert! Oh, oh, and one of them isn't a toddler at all, but a magical elf with healing powers and when the hugs are done, you're all better!
Okay, n o w close your eyes.....
Yo Aquaman, are you sure you are not on an acid trip? Hey Toni, I hope today goes better! Tom
-- Edited by turninggrey on Sunday 25th of October 2009 10:28:22 AM
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Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Toni, I know just about how you feel. Pain and no relief and the fear that goes with every movement - will this be the one that paralyses me? Maybe I've really got spine cancer? So I nice, big cyber hug to you.
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Well it must be working but maybe not in the way you'd anticipate.
Regular treatment at the chiropractor, a willingness to do what I'm told in treatment and a visit to the doctor for some pain killers (among other things) seem to have done the trick - also seem to have developed some common sense.
on Sunday morning, I decided to clear out the rubble from the coal shed. I worked for 2 hours and shifted about a cubic metre - only 6 more to go - and then stopped. Before I undid all the work that the chiro had done.
Previously I wouldn't have stopped until the job was done, my back was wrecked and I put myself back into the world of pain.
So the job is maybe going to take 6 times longer than I thought. So what, it's not life and death, only ego!
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Just a gentle hug, cos I also am no stranger to pain, since I have fibromyalgia and COPD. The COPD I can deal with, it's under control with medication but the fibro - that is a hell on earth. I am just about out of the recent flare-up which put me out of action on and off for 2 weeks.
I am walking like a duck, as my left knee is killing me, but I have managed to ease the pain quite a bit with my TeNs machine, alternate heat and cold applications, and trying to work out when I should be doing some walking and when I should be resting.
You are not alone with the 'I can't work this bloody programme when I am in pain' First sign of any pain (and I do have a very high pain threshold) the programme goes out the window, so a I can do is ACCEPTANCE!!! Not easy, but doable.
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this is pretty much exactly what I look like this morning... but Sober is all I really need, did a strool down that old memory, and think I prefer Insomnia to a long solid 8 hour Blackout......
....Gotta remember to find something...anything to smile about.......
Oh, oh, and one of them isn't a toddler at all, but a magical elf with healing powers and when the hugs are done, you're all better!
Hey Toni, I hope today goes better!