Sorry dudes....

Cd · Member

Sorry dudes....

Cd · Member

Oh and one thought keeps recurring to me. It was an interview with Stephen King. When a guy asked him how many beers he drank per night when he was a booze hound his reply was...

"all of them"

That's pretty much me.

ljc · MIP Old Timer

No need to apologize to me, you didnt do me any harm.
I am glad however tho that you are still alive. Some dont make it back to post that they got drunk. they either stay out there drinking, or they die.

Cd · Member

I suppose the 'sorry' was there cause I've had some great encouragement and stuff from you guys and I blew it.

I'm not letting this go though.

ljc · MIP Old Timer

Hey ... There but for the Grace of God go I .
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off . Forgive yourself , cuz God already has . Get to an AA meeting, get a good sponsor that has worked the steps and can guide you thru them, Get a God of your understanding and get healthy.

Avril G · Senior Member

In the meantime, whilst waiting for your Big Book to arrive, you can read it here http://www.aa.org/bigbookonline/en_tableofcnt.cfm

If this is the drink you needed to convince yourself you cannot drink again, it was a bloody good one. Today could be the day you get sober

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

CD, what Ljc said. It's not how many times we fall it's how many times we get up again. It's natural for alcoholic to drink. You're going against your nature to stay sober, which will require some effort at first but it does get progressively easier. You can do it.

turninggrey · MIP Old Timer

Hang in there CD, a lot of us have been there before. Keep pushing forward.
Tom

Jerry F · MIP Old Timer

Aloha Cd...Not drinking is not normal to the alcoholic. You did the normal thing
until you desire to be sober more than you desire to be under the influence.

Trust God and then drink and keep trusting God and the program of Alcoholics
Anonymous. Great courage and humility popping back in the door afterward.
Were still here for you and for each other.

smile

bikerbill · MIP Old Timer

Thanks for coming back - takes balls to stick your head above the parapet and say I got drunk - it's part of being honest with yourself.

Keep coming back and back and back as many times as it takes.

pinkchip · MIP Old Timer

Yes Cd, whatever it takes for you to become accepting of the idea that you can't really drink and have a healthy, sane, lifestyle. At first I was very wary that my own mental illness would stop that anyhow...but it didn't. I have some ongoing symptoms that I deal with and I don't have an insane lifestyle, insane consequences, and the insane desire to continually repeat that cycle of keeping myself sicker than I really was or am. I hope I am putting my own experience into words that make sense to you. Don't stay gone for long because the way I view it...you did some work on step 1 and if you just forget about it, you are going to have to start over coming to terms when you already did some of that.

Mark

Aquaman · MIP Old Timer

Hey CD,

"The only requirement for membership is a desire to stop drinking."

In Batman Begins, little Bruce Wayne takes a nasty header and it's either Alfred or his Dad who says "Why do we fall down, Bruce? So we can learn how to get back up."

More Batman bits...
The plot of the graphic novel The Killing Joke is that all that seperates the sane and normal from the insane and desperately criminal is 'one bad day' and The Joker sets about to prove this to Batman by committing horrific atrocities to those close to the Batman; Commissioner Gordan, Barbara Gordan and others in order to break Batman's sanity. It doesn't work...but comes awfully close.

What you've proven to us all is that all that stands between sobriety and insanity is one...bad...day.
The story of your stumble has brought me closer to my HP, reminded me to pray more than usual, count my blessings and re-play that mental video of my last drunken spiral that ended with a guitar-string noose hung up in my shed, ready to be used.
That's why we're a community with one primary purpose; to stay sober and help other alcoholics achieve sobriety.

Thanks for sharing CD, and keep coming back. Get your a** to a meeting.

Rob

-- Edited by Aquaman on Saturday 17th of October 2009 08:20:34 AM

Aquaman · MIP Old Timer

Whoa, whoa, whoa....

When did Britons start saying "Dude"?
I'm imagining that word being uttered in a generic Scottish accent and it sounds about as right as a Yank like me saying "Cheers, Mate."

Thanks again, CD. I'll never say "cheers, mate" ever, ever again unless it's in character. Upon further reflection, nor will I use "knackered" or "wanker" unless in character.

"Right Then", "Bloody He**" and "F**k All" are still, however, in my verbal lexican, as they do NOT sound ridiculous uttered by a Yank, just curiously out of place, which I'm fine with.

Right then,
Rob