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tryingnottocheckout


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My Glasses

By Anonymous


My glasses tell a story that only I can see

Of all the joys and sorrows that are happening to me


Those that know me best own pieces of my heart

And I had the best intentions always from the start


I have made mistakes and I hurt a few

But sometimes I never knew


And others made mistakes and hurt me

They hit me and they'd flee


My glasses get to see the tears of pain that flow out of my eyes

For all the joys and sorrows that come to me in disguise


I do my best to appreciate all that I have been given

My friends, my family, and my way of living


And I ask that they all forgive me if I disappoint them all

When I lose my footing and I slip and  fall


It's just because I can't bear the pain of looking through my past

And it's hard for me to overcome each and every blast


For some they just can't understand the darkness I have seen

And just for a short time the drinks can wipe it clean


I admit I have a problem I struggle every day

And wish I had a fairy to just take me out and play


So if you know someone who drinks then please understand

Their glasses may have seen too much and they might need a hand


That they might need a moment to get them past those thoughts

That keep them awake while the world sleeps through the nights


They fear the nightmares coming to remind them of those things

That their life threw at them through the years and the suffering it brings


Wish for me a good nights rest and and I promise I will try

That tonight I take my glasses off and dream I am am a fairy learning how to fly



-- Edited by tryingnottocheckout on Friday 16th of October 2009 09:09:59 AM

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Hello there tryingnotocheckout!
That was a very nice poem and I wish for you a good nights rest! When you awake, tell us how the dream was!
Tom

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Wendy,

How did you happen to select your user name?

Remember that God Loves You!!

When God closes one door, He always opens another- but sometimes He makes us wait out in the hallway for a while

Larry H.

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Hi trying........ Nice poem, and I ask you to let us know how you are doing, if you sleep better. Welcome to the AA forum here.

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I like the poem. I'm a fairy, but I can't fly yet. On a serious note, welcome to MIP! Post more please! Let us get to know you! Whatever pain you may be in is temporary because that is the way life works and AA will help you get through it. At least that's how I'm seeing things at the moment.

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Hi Larry H

I chose my user name because of something I heard in rehab.  Some of the others just liked getting high but my reasons for getting drunk was to check out of my life. 

Glad you liked my poem.  I was at a pretty low point and I was compelled to let my family and friends know some of my reasons.  They all know my history.  I have had a pretty rough life.  Molested as a child, raped after my divorce. Had my kids taken from me.  Lost my job.  I have been through more than anyone I know and I don't know how I get through the days.  But I do.

Thanks for the thoughts on doors.  I am thinking I may need to start checking other handles. 

Take care.

Wendy

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Yah. I like that tag name for that reason...It only leaves some room for misinterpretation in that people could think you are about to commit suicide. But yes, one of my primary drinking motivators was also to just check out. I had progressed well beyond trying to drink for fun and was doing it to avoid all growth, emotions, responsibility, and so forth. I have had some difficult things happen to me in life...a crushing mental breakdown at age 25 that left me forever changed...struggling to accept being gay...several "divorces." I have not been a trauma victim and for that my heart goes out to you. I cannot identify with that particular pain but I know it must be whopping and so hard to get over. I do know multiple people though that share that awful experience....You have been through more than most for sure, but there is always someone in AA who has had all those things happen to them and I can think of several. Not to diminish ANY of what you've been through, but just to let you know you aren't alone in any of your suffering. The best thing about what you wrote I think was you don't know how you get through the days...but you do. This means you are doing something that's working right? In support and caring,

Mark

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tryingnottocheckout


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Hi Mark

Maybe we can teach each other how to fly.  I'll leave my glasses at home so they can't tell on us.

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It is funny that your name is Wendy when I really think I suffered acutely from a severe Peter Pan complex - A.K.A. my refusal to grow up and become a man rather and a selfish and hedonistic boy. Symbolically speaking also, I actually do think I am flying in a way. I have to keep breaking it down to basics. I am still pretty early on in this so every day that I deal with life on life's terms and do not drink is a day that I am kicking alcohol's ass and I am growing up in a hurry. So...basically I am flying through the process of going from an emotional age of like 10 to my chronological age. It's not happening as fast as I want sometimes, but it is happening. Love,

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