I envy you. You're in one of those rare instances when you can startup your own meeting--a meeting that can help your entire, little town! You're almost in the same position as the Pioneers were that we read about in the Big Book! A very exciting opportunity for you indeed!

Welcome Zahndi, thanks for joining us. Stick around and help us to stay sober. Dean

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We are a friendly group here learning to live togeter one day at a time

Zahndi,
Welcome to the board! 

It's 5:26pm and I just got a call to be picked up for a meeting. Oh how relieved I am. Earlier today I started crying because I felt overwhelmed with thoughts. I know I am this lonely due to my decisions and actions. I own up to that. At the same time I know I am taking steps to turn my situation around. I was reading about God being there for us all the time-work, play, meeting or home and I have experienced this connection. What is wrong? Nothing is wrong. I needed to cry. It's okay to cry and I have trouble remembering this. god was with me and that is why I cried. It is what I needed even though I seldom know that. After crying I decided to get myself ready to go to a meeting as if. I told myself it is good to comb my hair, wash my face, put clean clothes on after I feed the horse, goat dog cat even if I don't get a ride tonight. I know well the trap of expectations! I did these things as a wholesome thing to do not in order to get what I want. As it turns out I am getting double blessed. I took care of myself which always gives back through self love. And- I am going to a meeting. Same as when I got clean and sober in 86. I didn't do it for anyone else. I had no outside intervention. Same with tonight. (with God by my side) I allowed myself to feel what I feel then I took action. This is the core of sobriety. When we start from the inside out then we have something to give others. How else can one carry the message?

-- Edited by zahndi on Wednesday 14th of October 2009 08:04:47 PM

At the meeting last night I met friendly caring men and women. The guy who picked me up only had an hours notice yet he was one of 3 people who called back and forth with each other to insure I was picked up. I had called our central office in Eugene on Sunday and with diligence kept checking in to show I was serious about my request for contact out here in the booneys. Last night validates the principles behind this program. Being in the presence of many in recovery is powerful in the healthy meaning of the word. I now have a phone list for my local area-I set up a ride with a woman who regularly attends the women's meeting the following night. I had meaningful converstion after the meeting from those introducing themselves while pointing out their name on the phone list. That is very helpful to meet someone and mark their phone number on the list. It tells me later that person came up to me after the meeting. They care enough to reach out. That shows me an understanding of what the program is about. One woman said to me-"we are a close bunch here-we look after one another".  I remember now what it is to attend meetings where I don't have this experience. I am at a place where I can see what I don't want and focus on what I do want for my particular program. A common term in the enviromental movement that I like to associate with my spiritual path goes like this: Think globally act locally.
So while I may live near a very small town it is a strong recovery community where I met people with a life style similar to mine ; farm animals, garden and wilderness. With the electronic tech as it is I have the balance of resources from internet and phone to reach out anywhere in the world coupled with my personal style of quiet slow bending with the Oregon country flow.

Sounds like a great meeting and group. Reaffirms my own faith in this fellowship! :)