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Originally posted by: wagon
"how very true i really like that one have a great day god bless you wagon"

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We have made others sick with or disease. They may not be working a 12 step program and are ready to jump on every thing we do or say for a long time. T he AA book says for these people we should treat them as we would a sick friend. I try to take that in consideration and send these people get well cards! While we were drinking remember we judged ourselves by what we "said" we were going to do. Others judged us by our actions. We alcoholics have one of the toughest denial system in the world. When I was drinking I would swear up and down I did do this or that, I would always say don't you remember me " telling "you! I know for me the thing they say about how you can tell when a  drunk is lying, you know when his\her lips are moving.lol In my sobriety I still am not always honest with myself or others, but this is not a contest. This is my life. I may always be a little bit of a liar. I can only work on it one day at a time. It took me a very long time in AA to not lie about not drinking. I THOUGHT THAT WAS WHY WE COUNTED DAYS! I Finlay woke up to the fact it wasn't a contest between you and me, it was my sanity, jail, or death. And like a lot of others I found death would at one time or another be preferable to the others. I was told I would have to be institutionalized throughout the rest of my life. I thought THEY WERE CRAZY! (I stopped going to the therapist because he said I was crazy) It was all  proved true. Until I was honest with myself and admitted it was BOOZE. At those times of my life my disease lied to me , It said it's not me! ( booze talking to me and trying to get control.)I thought it was my parents, my abusive husbands, my finances, my bad mother-in law. I thought maybe I was schizophrenic, Bipolar. Some  strange and note worthy brain disorder. I was so full of self importance in those days! I hoped I had something scientist would find only "I" had. Write a paper or better yet a book! I Finally knew I was just an ordinary drunk. It hurt my feelings. I got drunk. Well to make a log story short, I had to give it up. My life as it was, and AA helped me find out who I am. I may not be the most important person and the stars and the universe do not revolve around me. ( that was the drinks making me dizzy) . I am just a sober normal person today. That is all I have. ( Anyway I thought normal was what you set the washer at while doing the laundry) Normal is relative. So yes I am much better.

 If a word or two is not spelled right it is because I have written some stupid word that does not exist and I spell the way I pronounce as in an East Texas drawl. I say checking when I talk about Kentucky Fried Checking! LOL my IE spell checker does not speak East Texan.

I need to edit my nick name. To mrsbillfrog. I am not in a same sex marriage. But I believe if someone wants to be that is their proactive. HELP I AM NOT A MR. I DON'T KNOW WHER TO GO TO EDIT MY NICK! THANKS ANYONE.