I had court today and lot of the outstanding issues were resolved. I can begin access again. The ex is adamant that she wants me to be a part of my son's life, and has backed off. From the sounds of it I just have to give half of the RRSP's to her, and sign off the house (wasn't mine anyways as I had gone bankrupt). The judge denied spousal support (for the time being) due to my continued child support and her ability to work. It looks like the lump sum payment for the RRSP's will quench her desire for future spousal support, but who knows......
Ayways, a load has been lifted, and the miracle of the whole frigging thing ? STILL SOBER ! But I am physically and emotionally exhausted. I was so worried about her holding a gun to my head for the rest of my life. If you look back through my posts I have run the whole gamut of emotions here, Happy, Sad, Excited, Depressed, Suicidal, Illogically Insightful.
I get to call him tonight to wish him good luck on his first day in Grade 5. And I will call him again tomorrow. The lady friend and I are to the big city on Friday to do some shopping and hopefully I get him Saturday for a portion of the day ! At last, a little bit of normality in my life. It's what I worked so hard for to achieve.
Thank you everyone. I am glad I did not hang myself a short while ago, it looked like the only viable option. And thank you to 2 Alcoholics who so long ago put this program of healing together that could fix a f#@k-up like me !!
Have a good day everyone... Scotty
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Hey Scott I was wondering how you were since we spoke on the phone. Well, It's always worse in our head than how it actually turns out. One of my favorite quotes, which up until now I thought was a Churchill quote is this one:
I have known a great many troubles, but most of them never happened. Mark Twain
and here's a few more. when you need inspiration google quotes on any topic. Churchill and Lincoln can't be beat for troubles and desperatation.
"If you are going through hell, keep going." - Churchill
edit: looks he did say it
"When I look back on all these worries, I remember the story of the old man who said on his deathbed that he had had a lot of trouble in his life, most of which had never happened" - Winston Churchill
Nothing lasts forever not even your troubles. Arnold H Glasgow
If a man could have just half of his wishes, he would double his troubles. Benjamin Franklin
If you see ten troubles coming down the road, you can be sure that nine will run into the ditch before they reach you.
Calvin Coolidge
If you compared your troubles, or challenges, with those of others, you would surely find that there are those whose troubles make yours look like minor inconveniences. Catherine Pulsifer, from Cheer
Troubles, like babies, grow larger by nursing. Lady Holland
Better to lose count while naming your blessings than to lose your blessings to counting your troubles. Maltbie D. Babcock
I would not leave you in your times of trouble. We never could have come this far. I took the good times, I'll take the bad times, I'll take you just the way you are. Billy Joel
Drag your thoughts away from your troubles... by the ears, by the heels, or any other way you can manage it." Mark Twain
Trouble is part of your life - if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you a chance to love you enough. Dinah Shore
-- Edited by StPeteDean on Monday 31st of August 2009 05:09:28 PM
Aloha Scott...stay in the program and more miracles will show up. It sounds like you are willing to be responsible without being irrational or unfair. That was and still is recovery for me. I had to remember to "practice the program in all of my affairs" as the 12th step mentions. That reduced the number of affairs I was having also. LOL
"Never trouble trouble till trouble troubles you" anonymous. (((hugs)))
Phheeewww! Thank Goodness, Scotty. I spoke to you in chat too at that time & it was dark, real dark! I'd never known you to be quite that way before & it had worried me. I'm glad your load has lightened & that you stayed sober throughout. The whole point came through too & that was to be able to see your son & that we can't put a price tag on no matter what's arranged. I'm glad it's worked out for you. Hopefully this ordeal will be a good experience of faith at work & you'll learn that no matter how dismal something seems from the onset, that shining silver lining will come through when we sit tight long enough. I hope sobriety keeps on growing & getting better for you, Scott. How's your sponsorship going, my friend? Danielle x
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