This friend of mine is so insistant, he wants me in meeting like , Yesterday. But I am doing the best I can, I don't know if he understands all the obsicles I have to go through. I am also worried that he is upset, I don't want him being upset or worried,,, There is about 2000 miles between us so I can understand the worry. I worry about him too...
You are doing well. I also had a hard time with people wanting me to attend more meetings. I am glad that I have attended but I still cannot attend as many as I would like to. They say if you really want to then you will but for me everything has to be in order to feel right about attending. I dont want to abandon my family for the meetings- I believe it has to be mutually beneficial - not one sided. I keep my readings close by to remind me of the cunning and baffling and powerful ways of that old friend of mine.
I sometimes struggle with step two - but I work on it everyday and as Wendys post so nicely put it - the signs of spiritual awakening will be obvious and I will feel wonderful.
Good Luck and keep faith in yourself for now- You are worth it and you are strong enough to do what it takes to stay sober so that you can keep the hope in happiness alive. For me I am realizing that drinking just kills any hope of hapiness. Drunkedness maybe, but that certainly is not happiness. I was confused with that for a long time.
