Dear all, Am going to many meetings, and this is getting me from one day to the next. Today I had to send a difficult email facing up to something which is extremely important to me. Please send prayers. It was something I should have done many months ago but of course alcohol was the path I took to cope, unfortunately there is never any social drinking situations for me and the isolation I experienced in every facet of my life was incredible. I literally removed myself from my career, my home life, my relationships, friendships and had the terror, fear and confusion instead. I am just at step one but so aware of how unmanageable my life was and is that it is amazing. I was literally paralysed with inaction and indecision. The work situation is ongoing but my part in same is finished. All is now in my hps hands and I am turning all over.
Well done, sounds like you are definitely moving in the right direction.
I can relate to inaction, i've not had a drink for 19 months now, but still facing up to new things. Probably cos i'm now off my anti-depressants after 19 years! Reality can be tough, keep praying and using your higher power,
Glad to hear the program is working for you already. Fear is a horrible thing that leaves us when we turn things over to him and replace the fear with faith.
"I have been through hundreds of catastrophes, none of which ever occured"
Keep the faith
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Rob
"There ain't no Coupe DeVille hiding in the bottom of a Cracker Jack Box."
Thanks all for your support, all went very well, and I am really glad I faced that fear. It is something I can no longer manage and is a part of alcoholism for me I think. Getting to a meeting today as I go quickly off the rails without them.
