Was thinking of Joni's Post on Cranskter, and have to say I am unwinding from feeling more like a growling grizzly bear this am.
Had two situations yesterday that I could not resolve, and first thing this am I did so. The first was a Contractor, that had said she wanted to be at my house to go over a few things before for work began, at 7:00, I had said no, we will have to do this at 8:00 she said she would call yesterday to confirm the 800 o'clock hour, and did not call so I woke up 2 hours early, (really really really not an early mornng Person) got dressed like I was going to a friggen fire drill, then ran around straighten everything up and THEN she called and said it would be Friday at 730. I gave in and was actually reliefed that I could stop the pace I was in.
Secondly, I had a man from what I thought was my own telephone carrier, tell me about some features that would save my account some money. ON MY ACCOUNT. I had made the call in the first place about another issue, so was pretty confused about this. Well I got a message on my telephone saying Thank You for Switching your Account to AA, Nevada, ( My current account in AA in California, and a confirming email, stating that so many of the features I use would now be charged, non of which were explained to me. Well at 800 am sharp, I called and said, dont want to talk about the details, GRRRRR, just that I never intended to Switch my Account was told I was going to be saving on my existing account. Ok, boring story, so I took care of that, done, back to the status quo.
So I am sitting here and unwinding from both cases feeling like I had to grab each bull by the horn, and I did, and all resolved.
Now, will have to go and get very quiet, and silence my head, and on a good note say good work Toni, good Solid Boundaries.
Yes granted, Powerless over People, Places and Things, agree, but NOT powerless over how we handle ourselves, and when you feel a need to correct something, that is something I do have Power over. Hope I am not deluding myself with a cloud of denial.
Ok, next post will be uplifting, promise.
Thanks for letting me vent the steam out of my ears, that has now just left.
And feeling a lot better, so great to be able to just say what is going on, when it is going on.
Hope you all have a happy and positive day.
Happy, Joyous, and Free.......(fake it til you make it)
Tonicakes
-- Edited by toni baloney on Wednesday 19th of August 2009 02:49:32 PM
I dunno if you can relate to this Toni or if it's a newcomer thing (which you would also relate to, ableit from when you were one)....but my mind seems to think that the little crap like my broken dryer or my car window not rolling down right is equally tragic and as much a crisis as big things...like when I thought my boyfriend was cheating on me and was ready to break up. I find myself in almost in the same frame of mind about both....In a way it's good that big things don't quite phase me as much, but little things should not be so annoying and "uncentering" to use AA terminology. I dunno. It's weird.
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Dunno myself, I never get rattled by much, only once or so a year, and feel sort of ridiculous when it is all over. But as Jerry was saying in one of his responses, "time" does not have too much meaning relatively speaking just more 24 hours a day.
Hugs and did completely unwind from both dumbass things that bugged the heck out of me. Not tying to justify, ok, maybe I am, but felt some boundaries being pushed on, oh well, it is what it IS. Or rather it Was what what is WAS.
Progress never perfection.
Toodles, toni
-- Edited by toni baloney on Wednesday 19th of August 2009 03:45:17 PM
Good afternoon, or evening, whatever time of day it is. I wouldn't know, been on the couch asleep all day feeling like shyte. Things do tip the balancing act we are trying to perform, day by day, and kudos to you for getting that see-saw back to center line, Toni.
Nothing ticks me off more than jackazzes calling and lying to us about utilities and such.
I am having an off day too, if it makes anyone here feel any better. At least none of us are ever truly "alone".
Have a better day, and toodles. Joni
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been in that space also and it can be tough going when it all piles up together, I've just had a week of the drama which has been none of my making, unusual that, but wrecked after it
Yeah, I've had similiar experiences. Sometimes I'm able to handle huge events but the little one's take on more meaning than they should.
A friend of mine reminds me that we're complicated people- we'll obsess over the littles things for hours..... days....... He tells me it's like devising a plan to pole vault over fly sh*t.......... This makes me laugh whenever I think of it...
i have had similar situations so i can relate :)