I am currently working on my 4th step and so much stuff is coming up. It really hurts but I know this is they way things are suppose to be. I am 3 weeks from a year but right now I am wishing I never tried to do this. Any advice?
Fourth steps are hard the first time...they really make you feel like sh*t, huh? Do you have a sponsor you can keep in close contact with while working on it? Go to lots of meetings and share on what you are feeling right now...secrets keep us sick. I would work on it for about 20 minutes and then take a walk or do something else for awhile so it didn't overwhelm me. And as soon as you're done, do that fifth step right away, so you're not carrying all that by yourself.
Share. If you are overflowing and it's hurting, it needs to come out and holding onto it will hurt. Nothing happens in this world by accident...this site...the AA's here...we can help you keep moving forward. We all know how important it is.
You will have the support of all those who have been there, and you will encourage those who are yet to take the step. Fearless. You can do it.
Thanks for all the advice. It is getting better and I am keeping in touch with my sponsor. Oh my God , what would I do if I did not have her? Yike!. It is getting better. Every time I write something and get it out it is easier. Thanks again.
