I was just thinking about what is going on here today, and how it relates to my recovery.
It has been horribly hot and very humid for a couple of days now. I am off for a few days as well. Just taking the garbage to the trash can behind the house was stifling, and I poured with sweat trying to throw some things out.
And now, out of nowhere, the bright hot sun was covered with black clouds, and the rain has burst forth. Torrential rains come down, lightening bursts across the sky, and the thunder bangs and crashes about. And in the midst of all this "scary stuff" is.... .... Relief.
Today I have real relief in my life, that is more lasting than the break from a hot summer outside today. I have the relief of serenity and peace, which took some thunder and lightening in my life to get to. But I could not be where I am at now, without walking through the dark stuff. My early recovery from alcoholism rumbled and came to a boiling point, where I had 2 choices, Drink, or Take Action. Both seemed dark choices at the time, and there was fear all around in my head and heart. But I knew I didn't want to drink, so I swallowed hard and proceded with the Steps that would save my life, and bring me all the blessings and calm that I have today.
Thunderous times come in my life here and there now. But I have learned from experience that the storms are not to be feared, for they bring forth true relief when we do the next right thing.
Thanks for listening.
Joni
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Awesome Joni, love the comparison. Makes me appreciate what I had to go thru to get sober too. Stats show that we are a minority but I've always believed that if I could do it, anybody could. It must start with a real honest inventory, I think.
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Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned. ~Buddha
