Sober today so far. I'm just thinking about today.
Keeping busy.
Last night I went to an AA meeting and when I got home I prayed. I surrendered and I'm hoping that God will help.
In bed last night I took stock in a big way. For some reason it occurred to me that it was more unusual to lie in bed sober than to fall into bed and not remember (drunk). How many nights in the last 3 months have I gone to bed sober? 5?
Anyway, I remembered allsorts of things I;d done when drunk. I really made myself think about it. This way I could accept that I really do have a problem and I really do need to stop drinking.