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Sobrietyspell


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I realised today (again) during & after Carl's birthday share that in order to be selfless & have my worth as a Gift of God I truly do need to give up self-seeking defects such as self-pity, self-justification, self-importance, self-condemnation so that I can allow for their respective opposite assets of self-forgetfulness, humility, modesty, self-valuation to arise. I need to drop my false-pride & the pretensiousness that comes with it. I do not need these masks if I allow my worth to come naturally by the letting go of my egotistical self-protecting & self-interested self-will.

Of course, beneath my 'attack & defend' core nature, it is God's will for me to be loved, lovable & loving. It is my defects of character that stand in the way of that in my tendencies to dominate & control which makes it evermore pertinent for the truism 'Sometimes we must surrender in order to win'. It is I who get in my own way & cause my own suffering & resistance. I need to drop my excuses, self-sabotage, feeling incapable or inadequate & not people-please giving my power away. Less is so often more when I am in doubt. Love never fails.

If I am willing to give it all, good & bad to my God, I can be sure in the faith that for these I will be given back my best. If I am feeling unworthy I need to ask myself 'What defect am I in?' & surrender it accordingly. My faith & courage is not the way of weakness but in the continuing belief that this Higher Power will repeatedly restore me to sanity. I do not have to continue in making the same self-defeating mistakes being driven by fear. I prefer & trust to be guided hence my maintenance steps on a daily basis.

Practice makes progress :) Thankyou for allowing me to be here to share in another moment. Love & fellowship, Danielle x

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Thank's for sharing '



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toni baloney


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Good Morning Danielle,

First I do have to say that you win, hands down, that visual of the sink and you taking the bowl and putting back in the sink again, coffee grounds mixed with Peas,
was histerical, made me laugh so hard.

Onward, loved this Post and wanted to add one of my favorite Prayers, seems to fit into what you are seeking............just for today............


Prayer of St. Francis

Lord, make me an instrument of Your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
where there is injury, pardon;
where there is doubt, faith;
where there is despair, hope;
where there is darkness, light;
and where there is sadness, joy.
O, Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek
to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand;
to be loved as to love;
for it is in giving that we receive;
it is in pardoning that we are pardoned;
and it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.

Danielle, everything you write is always so beautiful written. You have a true talent in that.

Hugs and Love, Toni



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Thankyou both for your replies x

Toni, yes it is the Step 11 prayer that guides us in specific instructions as to what is God's will & Steps 6 & 7 are how to do it. 1, 2, & 3 are related to the three pertinent ideas that I can't, He can & to let Him. It seems to me that the program only becomes simple, ironically, with familiarity & practice. Until then there is always much confusion especially in earlier recovery for me because my trying to figure it out with my mind rather than it being an experiential thing always complicated it lol Ceasing to fight anything & anyone simplifies my life too as I'm then not engaging with my reasoning & strategy skills which can also be another route to over-thinking & analysis lol

I did my morning prayers on awakening today & it came to me how my desire not to drink is a concentrated commitment to my Higher Power. This primary purpose when I allow it has the capacity to over-ride the potential for my outsized instincts which cause me problems if & when I've allowed them to run wild. My strong desire not to drink keeps these in check, right-sized & closer to sane. The power of this program truly is fascinating & I love how more is revealed with each stalwart effort of mine joined with the help I have in fellowship. I am grateful for the gift of sobriety I get with my most honest of desires lol Thanks to everyone for travelling with me. Tis so good not to be alone, Danielle x


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jonijoni1


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wow, can I ever relate to "self-seeking defects such as self-pity, self-justification, self-importance, self-condemnation". Those things sure do plague us, and are no darned good for us or others, whatsoever.

You have an uncanny way of putting a name on certain behaviors and attitudes, you are very good at exploring and putting your finger on things in this program. You help me soooo much!!!

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Sobrietyspell


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Thank you, Joni! I'm planning on journalling my little recovery moments more frequently. It's great to share & have these progressions amongst us all@MIP. The programme gets easier when you know. It is only ever my resistance that makes it hard ;) Danielle x

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