My last drunk

FlyingSquirrel · Senior Member

My last drunk

Dodsworth · Senior Member

reading that reminded me of me. Yup, called a few people yesterday at 7am in a blackout and apparently was making noises rather than actually talking

cramcj01 · Senior Member

Everyone does that 'drunk texting' when they have been drinking. And it usually ends up more embarassing than anything else smile

But, what I did notice is how you put you guilt on your wife (which I'm sure you know also). That's what my boyfriend does to me. Whatever happens to him, is my fault. A cop followed him home one night after getting trashed. Though he didn't pull him over, he blamed me for not being with him to drive him home. But I didn't want to be in a bar. It's just a horrible feeling to feel that you have to keep someone else under control, when you have to try so hard to keep your own life under control.

Just try and remember the items in your life that you are in contol of, and the things that you are not. Which, I do understand you were drunk in those texts....and that can make us do and say so much more than we need to at times. wink

I'm so glad you are sober now! Keep strong.

-- Edited by cramcj01 on Friday 3rd of July 2009 06:17:35 AM

pinkchip · MIP Old Timer

FS, that does sound pretty familiar even though we have completely different circumstances in our lives. I wrote my last drunk as an assignment from my sponsor. It is there to look back on whenever I think my life is "so manageable" I can afford to drink again. I cheated on my partner and crashed/totaled my car in the same night. I did not get a DUI for some reason which still baffles me. I went back and picked up a shard of headlight and I keep it in my new car to also remind me of that night. That was the epitome of me being a crappy, selfish, lying, dangerous, sneaky, and irresponsible person. There are a couple of crucial similarities I'm seeing and I think that might be why so far, AA is working for both of us. I was really thinking about stopping drinking before the whole event and was pretty disgusted with myself and what I'd become. I had called the AA hotline 2 times questioning about going to AA. I just needed that final stamp of YOU HAVE A FREAKIN PROBLEM to get me into action. So, I went willingly and knowing deeply I had a problem and needed to change. Sounds like that is where you were at too.

jonijoni1 · MIP Old Timer

Wow, took me back to the old drinking sagas of my own life. How small our world is when we are actively drinking. The bar, the bartender, the other drunks, the spouses on our backs, the police..... and that's about the size of it...... all wrapped up into a little package of Hell.

By the time I got sober, I had multiple DUIs and had not been driving for a long time. Drank alone, imbibed in other things, alone, had not worked a legitimate job in years. The punishment and consequences were never enough for me. I am so glad things turned around. Gives me a lot to be grateful for today.

Thanks for the post!
Joni

TLH · MIP Old Timer

Painful to read.

This, on the other hand, kind of made me grin:

http://www.readwriteweb.com/archives/google_mail_goggles_are_you_su.php

When I was active I should have had to blow to get keys, use phone, text, internet.....