Hey All, Just sitting here happy to be sober. My feet are up and I'm watching the tube. I'm not blowing money at a bar and acting like an idiot. I am not going to wake up sick. Hooray for the program!!!
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"You're in the right place. That's the door right there. Turn around."
Yup... A co-worker got married today and the wife and I could have gone to the reception, instead I went to a meeting and came home and watched TV. For the last hour or so, our scanner has been going wild with cars in the ditches, DUIs, fights.
Can't wait till Monday to see how many co-workers ended up in jail...
Don't miss those days at all
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"A busy mind is a sick mind. A slow mind, is a healthy mind. A still mind, is a divine mind." - Native American Centerness
It was a hard hot Saturday here and it ain't over yet cause there's still the shower to take however in between there have been great spots, good spots and one spot where my disease jumped up with a "wish". My disease is something I don't practice anymore but hasn't left home. The client we were working for came up to me during a break and asked me if he "could get me a nice cold..." and here is where my disease piped in..."San Miguel". Use to be my beer of choice and a very large part of my drinking identity. However the client finished his offer with "soda" and I replied yes thank you. I could hear my disease whimper "Awwww..." and did some flashbacks with more proof that alcoholism is surely as it is described, "a sleeping tiger". When I stopped drinking I could not evade a hangover from the second sip...no matter what I was trying to put into me. I was truely sick and drinking had become a painful event from that early in a bout.
My head decided to just let the flashbacks run...and they are running now without my help (I'll just let them do their dance and go take a shower) and without my fear. Thoughts however random cannot hurt me today, neither can dreams or flashbacks. They will run because I am tired and haven't done much to distract them other than come here and WATCH ORLANDO GET ON THE TRAIN TO LA.... Awesome game!! Cleveland's play was at times hopeful but not like their game 5. I'm sooooo grateful I'm able to watch without taking sides and without taking myself out before the end of the game with booze. Thank You HP and AA.
Keep coming back!! Let's see how Sunday turns out...I'll start it at my home meeting. You?
Congrats Turninfgrey and everyone else. I had a good one too, nearly 90 here and got some work done on the backyard patio. Just came in from a christening fire in the firepit we built into the patio. The wife and I are now planted in front of the tube as well watching the 10 oclock news and I will remember the entire day and evening tomorrow!
Oh this is just great ! I am up early, feel fresh, very alive and happy. My dogs have got great big smiles on their faces and I will take them for a run shortly, after I've watered all the veg and plants I have started to grow in sobriety! I'l do a bit of work, then maybe do some painting (which I have also taken up in sobriety).
What a fantastic difference from before, when I would still be in bed right now, feeling very sick and guilty, probably having a panic attack before I've even got out of bed and completely filled to the hilt with dread knowing that the day would bring the same kind of misery !!! Wow - what an amazing, fantastic programme!
Great, motivational stories! You have to enjoy the small stuff! Woke up this morning fully in command of myself. I was not thinking of what magic product would "put the fire out" or worse, considering fixing the problem with "the hair of the dog that bit you". (Sounds like pirate talk doesn't it?) I live in South Carolina but work around the nation mostly in New York. The mornings in the South are warm and sultry and in the north, cool and with the smell of numerous multi cultural breakfasts cooking. I really enjoy that moment of stepping outside and checking the day with all my senses. That was denied to me with alcohol because I just didn't care.
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"You're in the right place. That's the door right there. Turn around."
I know what you mean. Being sober is great. Alchohol is a depressant and only brings you down. I have found a greater clarity since I stopped drinking and following the steps has worked well for me.
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You have to live life to the fullest because you don't know what you got till it's gone.
Yes, cat crawling on my lap and petting her. Just watching the lake from my balcony. Driving to work without thinking "How am I going to get through this day with this bad ass hangover?" All of these are small, but large blessings.
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
Jerry calls his, his sleeping Lion, I call mine, my Sleeping Gorilla, same stuff, the Disease out in the Parking Lot, doing push ups, while we attend our meetings.
And those awesome lights going on for you, like just that Saturday Night, sober, and driving to work, Sober, and not walking in wondering if anyone can tell you are hung over.
This Program, working the Steps, and following suggestions, our lives change in so many amazing ways.
When I read you Post, my inside response was HOORAY for you!!!