God???

MDC · Senior Member

God???

eastcoastscott · Senior Member

Hey Mark,

I had a misfire too once, years before I sobered up. When I look back on that incident now, I just realize that I was in a completely different mindset. This proves to me that things can change, I can have a different perspective on life. During difficult times, I find that I develop tunnel vision, get fixated on the drama and rarely see anything else. Nowadays, I try very hard to step back, not react to a situation but rather respond to it, convincing myself that there are options. I can save myself a lot of grief that way. "This too, shall pass" has become my friend.
Keep up the good work Mark!

Scott

Sobrietyspell · MIP Old Timer

Wow.. What a Talisman for Life you keep in your pocket with you, Mark.

I've kept many little gifts friends in A.A. have given to me on my sad, mad, bad or glad days & they all add up along with each day. You're doing today & I'm proud of you. Thank you for your gratitude. I'm so happy for your enjoyment of still being here, breathing today. Your story & your pain will help so many of us like we all continue to help each other. That's how it works. That's GOD in action for me.. Good Orderly Direction.. Group of Drunks.. Our common peril bonds us to one another in gratitude, hope & happiness.

I always wanted this. I always wanted to be loved & accepted this much. To count. To matter. To be there for someone like them for me. No matter what or how little else we'd have in common. To love one another's humanity & vulnerability beneath all our dreams & strivings. The simple success of our spirit. United & living forwards. You all mean so much to me & I think you for helping me to express myself & being able to do so in a safe place away from hurt & ridicule. You do all keep me resilient. Thanks for your share, Mark :) Danielle x

MDC · Senior Member

Someone earlier was talking about their belief in God. I do belive that God brings us to places in life where we must either accept what is real, or reload. God brought me here to all of you. At times you have been harsh, or direct, blunt.. At times, very kind and compassionate, but never not caring. What ever you have said to me, it always comes at the right time. I've never met any of you, maybe. hopefully someday I will, but you and my frineds in AA have become tha closest friends that I've ever had, I thank you for that. I called someone from here late one night, they are in a different time zone, He was there and made follow up calls to melong distant). My drinking friends would never have done that and I've know them for years. I'm not saying that they are bad people, but just in a different place in life. I hope that I can be there for just one of you when you need someone.

What I'm trying to say, I guess, is that I'm thankful for you all and I don't know God's plan...but I know he has one...God works through good people like you, maybe, God willing, I'll be someone like you.

BTW, one day I will reload that one shell, to see if it will fire. My target will be a "bud light" can. The last I will have my hands on. If I can ever figure computers out, I may even post the video. It may not be much to anyone else, buit it's a big deal to me!

If everyone else leaves, I will NOT be alone.
Thanks to all of you,
Mark

-- Edited by MDC on Sunday 17th of May 2009 11:46:02 PM

-- Edited by MDC on Sunday 17th of May 2009 11:48:42 PM

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

Hey Mark,
You're on the right path. If you stay sober, help others, and remain grateful, you'll be genuinely happy regardless of what is going on around you. I'd defuse that bullet by removing the gunpowder from it. That's what we learn to do in AA. We learn how to defuse our disease (and ourselves) so that we don't go off, no matter what is happening. We accept that life happens and in the country they say "You'll have that".

Dean

pinkchip · MIP Old Timer

I picked up a piece of my totaled car from my drunken car crash on the morning of October 1st...day 1 (a piece of busted headlight). I have it in my new car and look at it as a reminder as well. I don't want to go back there. God spared me death, DUI, hurting or killing someone else in that accident...Why? I'm not sure. Helping others, to get sober....I would have just assumed die at that point too mark, but i didn't and I am grateful as well.

Dakota · Senior Member

excellent thread MDC.

I feel proud of you!

Wonderful posts by everyone on here.

: )

Dave Harm · Senior Member

Wow Mark...

In the short time you've been posting the change and growth has been extraordinary. I do hope you enjoy the ride. Don't ever worry about the destination just enjoy the journey.

For the record, I tried suicide in January 1986. The closed garage door - engine running routine. I was legally dead for a short while. It's a long story... but the bright lights and warmth and comfort I so badly wanted wasn't there. I was at a place that was cold and dark.

I think of that time and place whenever I'm down "in this world" and realize it can be a lot worse...

Dave

jonijoni1 · MIP Old Timer

"Alcohol isn't my only problem, but certainly is my biggest problem, but God willing, in time, it won't be a problem."

Good Man, I needed to see that very sentence more than anything else tonight!!! Thank you sooo much!!!

Joni

lani · MIP Old Timer

Thank you so much for sharing and I am always amazed at how our HP works! What an absolute miracle that you are here!!! Keep sharing and hanging in there!!!

Jerry F · MIP Old Timer

Aloha Mark!!

I also see that growth inspite of the hardships. That for me is the consequence
of working the program regardless of what's happening outside of it. I related
to your realization that you are loved. Yes you are and for no other reason than
that is what we have learned in recovery...to love openly and without condition.
I learned in the program and my HP's will (at least a small part of it) was that I
cross over the line and join all of these others who love me unconditionally in
doing the same thing. Learning to love myself as I loved others was a big part
of ending the drinking, fighting everything and one in life and yes also...getting
rid of my weapons, including the one that didn't go off. I know the taste of
gun-metal blue as well as I know the taste of Tangurey, Ron Rico, Black Velvet
and the others. I have no desire to taste any of them again.

There is nothing about you that is unworthy of love...God's, ours or your own.

(((((hugs))))) smile

kkotz401 · Senior Member

I personally like to believe in something bigger than myself. God has gotten me through this tough time and prayers can work wonders. It makes me stronger and helps me to get through the rough times. Staying sober gives you clarity and strength and also increases your desire to be successful. Life is good.