In the process of defining myself, I have a tendency to set up rules and boundaries and then forget that rules are made to be broken, as are boundaries to be expanded and crossed. --Kathleen Casey Theisen
Recovery has given us the freedom to address life honestly, with forethought and a certainty about the rightness of our actions. We need be mindful that what is right today may not be right tomorrow or thereafter. As we move through our experiences, we are changed, and then we look with a new perspective on old conditions. Our new perspective hones our value systems, and yesterday's rules and boundaries no longer fit today's situations.
Our growth is an unending process. What we confront today with assurance, we prepared for yesterday. And tomorrow will be eased by our definition of today. The program has gifted us with clarity - clarity about ourselves, clarity regarding others, and clarity on how to continue our growth.
My value system awaits finer definition, and every experience, today, presents me with an opportunity for that definition.
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Accepting Change
The winds of change blow through our life, sometimes gently, sometimes like a tropical storm. Yes, we have resting places - time to adjust to another level of living, time to get our balance, time to enjoy the rewards. We have time to catch our breath.
But change is inevitable, and desirable.
Sometimes, when the winds of change begin to rustle, were not certain the change is for the better. We may call it stress or a temporary condition, certain well be restored to normal. Sometimes, we resist. We tuck our head down and buck the wind, hoping that things will quickly calm down, get back to the way things were. Is it possible were being prepared for a new normal?
Change will sweep through our life, as needed, to take us where were going. We can trust that our Higher Power has a plan in mind, even when we dont know where the changes are leading.
We can trust that the change-taking place is good. The wind will take us where we need to go.
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
I've always been very hesitant of this change. You get accustomed to the daily routines in your life: stopping at the local beer store on the way home, having drinks when you're out to eat. I feared loosing those things at one time but now welcome this change in my life.
Thanks Phil. I found a local area meeting place and may make it down there soon. Just scared to death of going. Maybe even scared to see someone I know there. But I guess it's a "closed" meeting so if someone I know is there, they're in the same boat as me.
hey Proudfather...i just want to say how proud i am of you for your courage!!! Don't be scared my friend, Aa has become my second home..the only place i can go that there are people who know where i come from and don't judge me for it. I remember when i first went to a meeting...i was scared to, but the people there made every effort to extend a hand and welcomed me with open arms....i don't live close to any family and AA has become my family.
Thanks to the people and the program i'm working on day 314!!! I could never have done it alone!!
The hardest part is walking through the door. Once you do that, it's so much better. I drove into the parking lot and flipped a u-turn for a week b4 I finally got up the courage to walk in. I was amazed that the people there ahd been waiting a long time for me, and they told me so.
I remember going to a home town meeting years ago. So scared to walk in. Who would see me? Ya know, I knew the meeting was there, but didn't know who went. Maybe I didn't care? Maybe I never thought about it? I just was desperate enough to go.Things went good. I knew a few people and kept going back. Give it a try!! I had a really tough day. It's been a long time since I felt like drinking. Today was real close, Had to let GOD do his work for me today. Anyway It worked, here i am typing. Just got to stay away from the first one.