How do you know when you need to just accept something and work on your attitude and thinking and try to be positive versus knowing that you need to do something and actually make a change that you might be uncomfortable with? As I pondered this I couldn't believe I've been harping on this and feeling kinda crappy for 3 days. I say the serenety prayer daily at meetings. It's so easy to start saying some of these things and to stop thinking about their meaning. So...I just prayed and I don't really know what to do about things but I feel better anyhow. The answers lie with my higher power I guess. Obsessing about crap is my worst enemy...along with self pity and alcohol of course.
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do you have a copy of that little book, 24 hour a Day, in my first year, I did have a copy, carried it to work with me, and when I was not in a meeting, I would go somewhere private to re read the reading of the day, you might say that I was obsessed with reading and re reading those readings, on most days.
I definitely had and still at times have an obsessive personality, but we can trade in our negative OCD, for positive OCD. (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)
I had a woman recommend to me a little book called "Brain Lock" and how to release ourselved from thoughts that repeat, repeat, and repeat. Some excellent exercises in that book, and very simply too.
After a while practicing with a sponsor and the meetings, listening with an open mind to others and your HP the slogan "Keep it Simple" starts to make dynamic sense. "If you don't like how its coming out...change how you're doing it."
How do you want it to come out for you? Do what is necessary to have it come out that way.
By obsessing on someone or something we make it our higher power. And we lose contact with our true Higher Power.
Early in my recovery I obsessed about a case worker who was trying her hardest to have me locked up. And every time she entered my mind, I'd start praying. Serenity Prayer, 3rd Step Prayer, 7th Step Prayer, Lord's Prayer - it didn't matter - I just prayed and prayed and prayed until she left my mind.
And every time I did it, I'd catch myself with a smile on my face.
Best wishes, Dave
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"A busy mind is a sick mind. A slow mind, is a healthy mind. A still mind, is a divine mind." - Native American Centerness
Thanks for the suggestions. I was more dilligent abut reading the 24 hour book in my first 90 days...I should get back to that. I still read it more days than not. Often the topic of the day is directly what seems to apply to me...like my AA horoscope or something. On a positive note. I need to change my bio info on here from "A newcomer who did the 90/90 now in the 100's" to "now in the 200s" Whoopie! Day 200.
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