Wow! that's a lot of stuff. Your higher power is sending you a little message about what's waiting for
you on the other side. Good stuff to be grateful for. Hopefully she will be grateful for this experience too
as her actions were a cry for help as she knew that she'd eventually be found out. He getting away with this would be a death sentence rather than a opportunity to grow.

I've seen signs of activity with the NFL HOF and it's reminding me of my awesome trip last year Jonijoni.

Dean

-- Edited by StPeteDean on Sunday 22nd of March 2009 08:48:14 AM

Oh, Joni! That's Amazing re your Boss at work. That's a dream come true & what a relief after your HUGE courage in stepping up to the plate & being honest. I love when it is recognised the reality of how this disease can affect so many of us. I hate that it affects so many of us but it is my hope that truly at some point our world can face up to & admit it as being a real & very present danger. We are not the unfortunate few but a part of a great majority for what I can see & the sooner we can admit it openly & generally without any shame or stigma the sooner this society will get well as a whole & no one will have to suffer in silence & shame.

Much love & many prayers, Joni. I'm glad you came & shared this with us. We always have to remember that bad behaviour in ourselves & in others are seriously sick symptoms of our inner discontents. My program teaches me this time & time again no matter how hard I'm finding it to be humble & compassionate on any given day. I have my good qualities of course but I need God in my life to stretch the extra mile in times of hurt & need. I'll never be perfect but I'm glad to be sober today so that I can keep on trying. Joni, you're doing so well & I'm really proud of you. I hope your Higher Power continues in giving you the strength you need in the coming days.

Please don't feel bad for what you have to do in your job. I'm sure you have a wonderful manner of helping those staff carrying out their duties in a fully appreciated way. I'm sure your love, care & consideration helps to lighten the load for many. Keep on doing what you're doing & sharing your strength. You know you can delegate in a fully loving & caring way without guilt doing what's required of you because you're sensitive, responsible & also very efficient. I have every faith you're doing all the right things. Godbless & keep on inspiring me. You are Ace ;) Danielle x

Joni,

The more I learn about spiritual principles, the more simple and clear the issues of life become.  Ego and "I Am" have an inverse relationship.  Ego is "self will run riot" - if you happen to be an alcoholic, else it is just self will.  "I Am" is the spiritual being that is having your human experience also called spirit, soul, true self, higher self, Christ within and several others.  When one is out in front and active in the world the other is in back and can't be seen.  Crazy alcoholic behavior makes a lot of sense if you understand a couple things about ego.  Ego isn't just one character in your mind, it is a gang.  One member of the gang is a judge that hands down decisions that are dishonest, prejudiced, ignore truth and only lead to one thing - strengthening and growing the ego.  Another character of your ego is the "pain body".  It is a collection of all the pain you have ever experienced.  The "pain body" and hence the ego cannot digest and use high vibrational energy that you get from emotions like joy, freedom, love, and appreciation.  "Pain body" can only digest low vibrational energy generated by emotions like fear, despair, powerlessness and grief.  Our feeling are the result of our thoughts.  So the judge hands down a decision to ego that fires off thoughts that cause feelings that cause low vibrational energies that your ego can digest and your ego grows and becomes stronger.  So in your former co-worker I can see the judgement "drugs are good", the thoughts "get more drugs", the feelings of fear, despair, guilt, powerlessness, and an "I Am" that hasn't seen the light of day in a very long time.  But your former co-worker isn't here, you are.

Ego is that part of your mind that thinks it is separate from everything and everybody.  Therefore, your ego needs an identity desperately.  Job, possessions, body, sexuality and religion are great sources of identity for your ego.  That dishonest judge in your ego is handing down the decisions about how much time you have for meetings.  The 12 steps are a process that moves your ego back so that your "I Am" can come forward.  The fact that you are here means that you are already well along the way.  By that, I mean that you have already become an observer of your ego and started to question the judgements.  Ego doesn't like being pushed to the back, but "rarely have we seen a person fail who has thoroughly followed our path."

You are correct Danielle thank you for giving Tolle credit. But there is a lot of Carl Jung in Tolle's writing and Bill Wilson considered Jung to be one of the founders of AA. They are Universal Truths and keep popping up perennially.

Aloha  Joni!!

What a great accepting atmosphere to be working in...and a hug from the boss too!!
 
The position of delegating is almost (not permanent) impossible for the enabler and
consider the consequences of not doing it well or at all.  You hold yourself entirely
responsible for how the job comes out...everyone else is scott free and able to go
on while you are tied up with the mess.

Check out how the Al-Anon Family Groups work with the Steps and Traditions.  They
are the same as AA's (Bill and Bob's wives started that program...Lois and Ann) and
worked toward changing many other compulsions other than just drinking.

If you want your co-workers to grow...delegate the work, give them the chance.
If you want to stop growing...don't delegate and hold it all for yourself.

Get off the fear!

(((((Hugs)))))