I'm doing a little better today, little bit more energy!! For the past few months since September 2008, I've volunteer some of my time to The Heart and Stroke Foundation. And Enjoyed it with passion.... I volunteered to become a canvasser for the month of Febraury 2009, that included my daughter....
Was asked to become the Captain for my Area, I excepted with having little doubt that i would be able to give my best, but 1 or 2 people had FAITH in me.
Well, now that is over for another year, I found myself feeling like a gave something back, that means so much... the hard work everyone involved put in, to make it a success for Durham!!
Durham Area raised $1300.00 for a good cause, I'm so glad that I stuck with it, sure makes one feel good to know that they were able to give back..
In the past, I'd have grand ideas and start some projects, but never followed through. Drinking was part of my problem the other was character defects. Things would start getting harder and people wouldn't do what I wanted them to. (expect ions) and I'd just walk off. I also never kept a job longer than a couple of years either. Those people just wouldn't act right.
Today, thanks to the Steps and a the help of my sponsor I haven't done this again, yet. So far most of my service has been in A.A., but I know my H.P. may have plans for me in the future, so I guess I'm practicing.
I believe in giving back too, any way we can, big or small. I volunteer at a local Emergency Department. In a way, I feel it's the least I can do to return the favour. Luckily nobody there recognizes me as a former patient!! I've been there a few times and yes...all alcohol related.....shhhhh!
Scott
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Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned. ~Buddha
I will chair my first AA meeting tonight. I am anxious about it but also excited. I feel blessed that I get to introduce my sponsor as a speaker and comforted that he will be sitting right next to me. It is hard to believe I am doing this after walking in such a complete mess just over 5 months ago (still a work very much in progress though). Focusing on others the best way to get out of my own head.
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It went very well. I was not nearly as nervous as I thought I would be. I just tried to remember that the meeting was for me as much as everyone else even though I was chairing. Hence, there really was no way to screw it up because everyone there was just another alcoholic in need of a meeting like me. It felt great to introduce my sponsor and brought us closer I think, partially because we got to share some of our teamwork in recovery with others. He was the one who was really on the spot because he was sharing his story. That took me out of myself and my nerves more than anything I think.
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Keep coming back. It works if you work it. So work it. You're worth it!
So far most of my service has been in A.A., but I know my H.P. may have plans for me in the future, so I guess I'm practicing. 