Hi all! It has been a while since I have posted. Anyway I have been trying for several years now to stay clean and sober without F2F meetings. What a failure I have been with it. Anyway there is a part in the Big Book that says "No one has ever won in single handed combat without the unaided will". Boy that never meant anything to me but today it is my montra! I went back to meetings and the overwhelming love and hugs and support has been wonderful!! Off Topic: I quit smoking and today is day 29!!! I am so excited! I used Nicotene Anonymous for this. Love you all! Allison
Hi Nique... Dang girl, if you can quit smoking, I believe, you can stay sober!!!!!! Good to see you and 90 meetings in 90 days is the ticket!
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"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
What happens in the physical world when a Deaf or hard of hearing person enters an AA room:Everybody else seems to be connected and that makes us feel even more isolated than normal.It is frightening that we understand nothing that is going on around us.When we do catch a phrase or idea expressed every body else seems to understand it in some other way.It seems that it isnt even English that we dont understand.We are here because we have hit a bottom and we are desperate.The fear intensifies because we know our lives may very well depend upon our beginning recovery.At least our marriage, perhaps freedom from jail and job or school depends upon our beginning recovery.And, we dont understand anything and we feel for certain that we are not part of it or connected to it in any way.So we sit and endure the hour if we can, get up and leave when it is over, go out and suffer some more until we hit another deeper bottom or die.
What happens in the spiritual dimension when a Deaf or hard of hearing person enters an AA room:A group of souls has come together with a common single intention, to recover from alcoholism.The spiritual beings are mixed and connected to each other so that you cant tell where one stops and the other starts.The energy level rises as all are giving energy and receiving more than they give.Occasionally an ego does something to stop the whole process but the process starts again as soon as the ego stops acting.Some meetings have more than their share of egos acting but the process of energy sharing is always trying to start again.The spiritual beings are not communicating by voice and it makes no difference if we are hearing, Deaf or hard of hearing.The Big Book mentions the language of the heart.That is the form of communication here.
According to the CCDHH web site (http://www.ccdhh.org/) there are 107,000 deaf and hard of hearing people in Sarasota and Manatee counties, Florida.My friend Darleen Gomez Zangara developed a prevention program several years ago entitled Me Too and stated statistics that 1 in 4 deaf and hard of hearing people suffered some form of substance abuse.That means there are over 25,000 deaf and hard of hearing people in this area who are alcoholics or drug addicts.In the general population (hearing world) about 3% of alcoholics stay in a 12 step program of recovery long term (According to AA's 1989 Triennial Membership Survey 5% of newcomers continue past the first year.)That means that if there were equal access for deaf and hard of hearing people, there would be over 750 people attending meetings regularly.There are 2 people attending meetings regularly.There is almost no access to AA meetings in this area for deaf and hard of hearing.In many areas, Ft. Myers is an example, there is no access and therefore no deaf or hard of hearing people in AA. In my book How It Works, is a solution. The solution for individuals is posted as an excerpt on the web site: http://xenexsystems.webs.com/.There is also a solution for AA and the other 12 step recovery programs in the book.
It is in exactly the right place. If you understand what is really going on in a meeting (F2F = face to face), you appreciate it much more. Not many people could read that and stay away from meetings or be more grateful for the meetings they attend. The topic is "The Necessity of Going to F2F Meetings".
Deafhawk I am sorry if I offended you. I can understand your plight and it must realy suck but you can still benefit from face 2 face meetings just for the physical hugs alone and get your information from here online. Any disability can be overcome. I am disabled myself as in I can not walk and it makes it hard for me to go out to face 2 face meetings because it takes a lot of assistance and energy just to get bathed and dressed and out the door. I wish you much success weather it be here or f2f or both. Allison
U don't have anything to apologize for. Congrats on the smoking (or not smoking shall I say). I'm a non-smoker (thank God) because I've heard that is a real challenge. Keep up the good work