Relapse

cramcj01 · Senior Member

Relapse

Sobrietyspell · MIP Old Timer

I've met a few who came in early doors &, thanks to this program, manage continuous sobriety for years on end. It's wonderful but not overly important either. We only have today & we don't have to make it a competition. Pride can keep us out there drinking if we have a fall. I came in & stopped at 29 & a half so not much older than you, Crystal. My rock bottom was enough for me & long may it continue 1Day@aTime although of course I don't know what the future may hold so I keep it in the day. I have high hopes to live a long & happy sober life & share it with my fellowship, come what may.

I like the expression that 'Relapses are non compulsary' & I hope I never have to have one to learn the lessons it may bring. I'm grateful to be able to learn from others which is why my meetings are so important. The thought of not coming back from a relapse is scary to me & helps me stay sober today too. My drinking is too dangerous for me to indulge in so I'm glad all I have to do is not pick up the next one & work my program. Keep on doing what you're doing, Crystal & don't worry for the future. Today is wonderful & sobriety gets better. I hope you're enjoying many rewards already :) Danielle x

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

I came at 27 and it took two years for me to "get it". At that time I was friends with a couple people that had 10 years who had come in at 18 or 20 which was inspirational to me. Remember that this is a "Daily repreve from our disease based on our spiritual condition" hence "one day at a time". That's why it is so important to take the time, when you first wake up, to pray, meditate, or otherwise acknowledge a goal to yourself to stay sober Today. Make your decisions throughout the day based on that goal. Will this decision take me closer to that goal of staying sober today, or take me further away? This is "critical decision making" 101 lol.

Dean

Doll · MIP Old Timer

I've heard we've all got another drunk in us, but do we have another recovery?! At this point, I don't wish to find out, and pray daily I never do........

Jen

eastcoastscott · Senior Member

I don't have to stay sober for the next ...years. I just need to stay sober for today. The todays might just end up being ....years but is yet to be seen, I'm just gonna work on today. This is more manageable for me. I relapsed after 12 years, there are no guarantees in this quest, just sound methods to stay focused on. A friend of mine, in the program, killed himself last Monday, the second friend in 6 months to do so. We are dealing with a fatal disease, as you all know and must be diligent in our efforts to stay the course. To me, this means exploring all resources, or put another way...."going to any length to get it" - Chapter 5.

scott

pinkchip · MIP Old Timer

One of the people I turn to for wisdom has 15 years of sobriety and is just over 40. I'm sharing this because when I do the math, this means he was about 25 when he got sober. He isn't perfect, but he always has the wisdom and answers as far as what I'm going through in my early sobriety. So...while it is a day at a time, I pray that you could be that sort of person at 40 also and hope it's inspiration to you to in some way. Also I have seen people who came in to the rooms at like 19 and are my age with almost 20 years of sobriety...so yeah...It would seem possible.

laurenrich777 · Member

I think if we are not careful, the disease could trick us into thinking that relaspe is a normal part of recovery. I mean, why wouldn't it try to trick us. Not that it is an actual entity but darn, it can be pretty convincing at times.

For me personally, it is a day by day struggle (some days much better than others) and if I say "who knows what will happen" I think it is the disease talking.
I know better. I know how to stay sober. Does this mean I won't relaspe? No, but it means for today, I won't.

JrG · Member

I had 15 years being sober ( Feb. 4th, 1992)
sober, happy, prosperous
Life had it's trials, some were almost over whelming, broken back, loss of a 21 year carreer, learning to walk, starting all over and finding another job

I made it thru just great, sober

Then, a year or so ago I drank a beer
I'm older now, I can handle it
and I did

6 months later, I brought a 6 pack home
things are different, I can enjoy a beer in my own home once in a while

A year later I can't leave my house
fear grips me so horribly, I'm drinking by 7 AM
I'm physically sick in the mornings until I get that drink in me

Then I'm well enough to go get some more for the next day

Relapse?
or Suicide?

If your a true alcoholic a sober death would be a blessing over the insanity of a relapse

I pray to my God I have another recovery in me
I'm here so I know I'm in the right spot
I just hope I can hang on long enough to see clearly again

Thanks for listenin'

JrG

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

Welcome to the board and thanks for sharing JrG. I hope this is the first step to getting into a meeting. You can do it again, and things will look a lot differently to you once you get going.

-- Edited by StPeteDean at 15:21, 2009-02-26

JrG · Member

Thank-you
I know they will
I tried an on-line meeting and will keep doing so
my computer freezes up on some of this chat programs
I don't have a local meeting I can get to right now tho I do know where they are located

I'm not sober and I'm not drunk or loaded

I'm going to the Doctors tomorrow AM for a consult, see If I need to be monitered for a few days
I'm pretty sick right now and I know a drink will make be feel well again but it is not an option

I'm safe at the moment but I just have this moment

24 hours is not in sight right now

I have the Lord....
My God, I know he is powerful
but I can't find him right now

Thanks again for being here

JrG

StPeteDean · MIP Old Timer

this board is pretty active, keep coming back.

Dean

JrG · Member

I'll keep coming back as long as I can
Thanks for being here

I have to run into town and take care of some biz

I will be back later
tho if the sun is shining when I get home I will go out in search of my Higher Power

He is out there
I just have to find him and grab onto him

Life WILL be good again

Thanks again

JrG