Resentment is the number one offender. It distroys more alcoholics than anything else. From it stem all forms of spiritual disease, for we have been not only mentally and physically ill, we have been spiritually sick.
Resentments hu? Yup. One little resentment can fester and spoil ones whole day. I go to Alanon also, which really helps, and have a freind that has a great saying, when she gets angry.
"Ide like to rip his friggin face off!!" We try to learn to detatch with love. Sometimes I like the easier softer way. Carry a rubber baseball bat, and a water pistol. hahaha
And yup, it doesnt take much to wipe out our spiritual condition, if we allow people, places, things, and situations to really affect us, negatively.
You have a great weekend.
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
alot of times i FEEL justified in my anger towards things but then i remember 449 (417-in the fourth edition) and how i need to be more compassionate towards others and allow them to be where they are. For in playing god via opinions ect. that i then are not being rigorously honest with myself. for i then believe that i am better than. It is not my place to bring debate but to bring understanding. for god is the only judge. to clean my side of the street and be tollerant of the possible messes that i THINK i see from across that street. it is just not my business.
just a lesson i need to learn over and over in my daily life. progress not perfection. progress for me is to be aware of things and take responsibility for it. becoming more aware and not defensive but to effectively handle the behaviors is the difference of sober and dry.
i fall short and why because i am human but to not be forgiven is not as bad as to not forgive. Awareness and responsibility holds me accountable for what I bring to the table.
you all have a blessed day. just offloading a little more of the rocks in my head, my head gets smaller and more manageable afterwards and more useful.
I have that lovely little phrase as a mantra that I sometimes mumbe to myself loud enough almost for others to hear... Progress not perfect, over and over again. I'm jsut happy I remember it some days!!
September is my anniversary month, and every year I am reminded that I not only will never BE perfect, but that my progress is measured one moment at a time - in how I do -or do not -react to people in old, harmful ways and thoughts - to them and to myself.
One of the greatest blessing/gifts that I have from this program is the knowledge that I am forgiven for my past, but also -- that I have forgiven myself - as well. Until I was able to do that, I could not begin to let go and let God.
Resentment and forgiveness seem to be bound together for me. I can't expect myself NOR anyone else to be perfect, no matter how much I might want either one.
