If this program was religious I likely wouldnt be in it mate.
When I sobered up I didnt beleive there was a Higher Power, greater than myself, of any kind.
I used AA meetings as my Higher Power, for a long time. And now, all I know for sure, is--there must be something out there running the show, because Ive learned that all I do is screw things up, when I run the show on my own.
Little and big miracles have happened in sobriety that I cant explain.
One old timer told me to " Fake it till you make it."
So-in times of pain and turmoil, I tried to pray to a Higher power, that I did not understand. Things happened when I did that.
So-eventuallty--I came to beleive.
Not a religious God--But just a spiritual God--of my understanding.
When I had my last drink, I was sick as one can get--leaning over a kitchen sink.
My words were, "If there is some kind of a God out there, please help me. There is, and He did.
Thats just my story, and Im stickin to it.:) To each their own my freind.
Hope all is well with yu. Keep commin back. We care about you.
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ps. Then theres another aspect to all this too Stan.
The only requirement for AA membership, is a desire to stop drinking. Thats all.
How you stay sober is your business. Everything else is just "suggested" as a program of recovery.:)
Take what you wish, and just leave the rest. Have a great day Bud.
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Easy Does it..Keep It Simple..Let Go and Let God..
maybe this is easier to accept...is is for alot of people.
when i was in 15 years ago in my early 20's i didn't get the god thing either.
this time around i had two things happed that proved to me that a god does exhist. i just, for me have to believe, way too obvious not to. but without that proof i just don't know...
i feel that i was saved because i had no problem accepting the first three steps. i am not a fanatic or anything. i just can't seem to go back to the way i used to think about things.
it took for me the knowing that my way about things just is *&^$ up and saying i need help and really accepting that with no shame or guilt--just a sincere desire to want to do things a different way. that was my first
when my dad died while he was in my arms while i was moving him to a chair-a few months back-i actually saw his soul leave his body and this great peace came over me. and the waters which run deep for me became instantly calm. and now when things go wrong the core of my being does stay calm and it gives me the energy to hang on nomatter what.
i pray for you what was FREELY given me. i saw things when i got out of my own way. this is my story.
