Well folks, as long as I get through the rest of this 24 hours, I will become "red chip" though of course this moniker will still be a good reminder of my progress. So...it is day 89 and the 90/90 is around the corner. Odd feelings, but mostly happy. My spirituality seems to be broadening and I am praying daily (on my knees). I have started real stepwork on paper and am glad I put it off/it was put off by my sponsor (whom I have had and called daily since day 6). After this many days the concepts of AA and the big book have sunken in at a much deeper level though I recognize it's a process and I hope these steps will grow in meaning for me throughout my life. I kind of laugh thinking back to trying to work step 1 right off the bat. With less than 2 weeks sobriety I thought that if I admitted powerlessness to alcohol, I would then see how much power and control I had regained in my life elsewhere. What a miracle to see now that after 89 days, the list of what I thought was manageable today was so short. Nothing is manageable by me alone. It is all manageable through a higher power which IS developing for me. Similarly, I have regained no "power" but realized this 1st step is really admitting powerlessness over pretty much everything. With that said, life is still confusing and I have great moments of uncertainty, self-doubt, and fear, but serenity is increasing. Thank God (truly).
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Thanks for your post. I'm at only 11 days sober and went to my first meeting last Tuesday. I think I'm getting ahead of myself trying to understand the steps and getting in touch with my higher power. I haven't got a sponsor yet and I'm guessing he will tell me to slow down and take my time. I am glad to hear that the concepts from the big book have sunken in much more for you since early on. I'm looking forward to success like you have experienced. Congratulations.
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Thanks for your Fantastic Share, Mark! Truly Inspirational & I am so proud of you. Can relate to your process deeply & I'm grateful you've managed to do so much & come so far. 90 in 90 is an Awesome feat & hopefully will serve you well as your starting how you mean to go on. It sounds like you're studying the Steps well & understanding does take time to filter through. It has done with me & I'm contiunously astounded at how insightful & useful this Program is. It does keep getting better & better so keep on putting those feet one in front of the other 1Day@aTime. I hope you'll keep on coming back & sharing your personal revelations with us, Mark. Congrats in your newfound sobriety. Thank you for sharing it with us, Danielle x
Welcome to MIP, Supercub. I love your humility & willingness. Don't rush or put undue pressure on yourself. Recovery is a process & it's in the applying of ourselves to it that helps to keep us away from that first drink & develops our sobriety over time. Keep on going to meetings, reading here, picking up the phone to members with good sobriety & sharing your thoughts with recovering alcoholics & you'll find yours will come too. Make sure you read the AA literature regularly. This helps to change our 'alcoholic thinking'.
I say this because it was the head I had that kept on taking me back to a drink. I had a mental obsession & a head that would keep on saying 'it'll be different this time'. We call this insanity but in learning from AA wisdom & experience on a very old disease we come to build our defenses against that first drink which sets us in good stead to learning about the rest of the program & helping us to live life sober & deal with everything that comes at us 'living life on life's terms' .
But, 'first things first' eh! Keep on at your meetings & with your open mind, honesty, humility & willingness, your sobriety will come to you. It works if you work it. Keep coming back, SC & Well Done in 11 days! That's Great :) Danielle x
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Congrats on your upcoming 90 days! That really is a terrific achievement. Without having a sponsor and working the steps I couldn't keep sober. Keep up the good work.
Hi Supercub, Welcome to MIP. It's good that you are here with us. If you wanted, you could always start a new thread and then we'd get to know you a little better. But, please keep posting and letting us know how things are going for you, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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Supercub, one of the gifts of staying sober one day at a time is not only will you grow as a person, but you will inspire others. I started this thread to more or less report to the old timers on here how I was doing. I never expected to inspire someone else and that is one of the wonderful things about AA. Your post meant a lot to me and it helped me a great deal. I truly recommend getting a sponsor as soon as you can, but also that you don't obsess over it. When you ask someone they will probably say the words "temporary sponsor." It kind of messed with my head because at that point I was looking for a savior in a sponsor...which is okay early on. The first person I asked said no and, in retrospect, that was good because I'm not sure he would have been the best for me. Anyhow, having a sponsor keeps you accountable. Calling people and reaching out keeps you accountable because the people will call you back eventually (especially if you don't show up to meetings). It is scary to be accountable to AA and the people in it, but the alternative is so much worse. Just try to remember to keep it simple. Someone told me earlier on that for every day you don't drink, you can go to bed knowing that you just kicked that day's ass. I know how it feels to want to get better so bad and to want it right away so that you stop feeling miserable. I would say take a step back each day and give yourself credit for what you are doing. You are right where you are supposed to be. God bless.
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