Hi - I was pushed into AA at the age of 18. Remained a member for about 5 years and then put aside. Love the attention of AA bit just chalked it up to typical teenage drinking versus the blanks others filled in. Started drinkin again 8 years ago just a glass or two late in the evenings with my husband - this lasted for six years. Then the slope happened two years ago and the past couple of months have been hell for him, our children and myself. I lied to everyone! I feel great relief now and am looking forward to each moment. Howeve I can never become complacent again and am looking for someone who might have had a similar experience to share with. The guilt is about to swallow me! Thanks.
Hi Marie, Welcome back! The only guilt is the guilt of the past....Today is a new day and with some willingness you can surely get back on track! A great reminder to those of us who might want to get complancent and think we have this thing beat!!
Good luck on your new journey!
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Welcome back !! Glad you made it . I have to remember that there are some who dont make it back. They either stay out there drinking or they die out there drinking. Im very fortunate and blessed and I pray I Never, ever forget it.
There are so many people who have been in your shoes, you are not alone. But regardless of any of our stories, there is hope for all. I really needed to read your post today, because I'm at risk of becoming complacent. I got sober at 17, and yes, at times I think that I was just young, or that I can be okay on my own without AA and just not drink. I'm a mother now and that can be a good excuse for not going to meetings, calling people who know me well, praying, reading, meditating...you name it. So thank you for your reminder. I also have many friends who have come back and gotten through the guilt, remorse, and shame of returning. Some had over 20 years and were known as gurus in their home groups. So although I can't give specific ES&H about coming back, I know that recovery, happiness and usefulness is available to all of us if we want it. Thanks so much for your post!
