I have a serious issue and I need some advice. Last Friday someone gave me a medication for my severe headache and neck pain. I knew enough to know it wasn't a narcotic. I took the medication. I knew I had to pee test that day. Well today I found out it was a barbituate. I had no clue and feel like a complete idiot. today my program person called and told me I had tested positive. I was flabbergasted and all upset. I don't know what to think of this. I was honest and told my program person all this. If I was going to relapse i sure would have picked a drug that would have done something for me, and I sure wouldn't just have taken just one pill, and I damn sure wouldn't take it on a day that I had to pee test. It was my own fault, and yes I own up to it. I don't know if I am explaining this right at all. I have 3 1/2 years clean time, have never had a relapse and I don't want to relapse, and I sure didn't want to that day. I had no reason to. I need some honest opinions. thanks kim
Good evening. The first leason here is don't pop pills from people who don't know you well enough to know what is wrong for you! Barbituates are class C-B drugs in the UK, same as Cannabis, some amphetamines, and opium resin. Barbituates are strong tranquilisers which are great if you have the dt's and are in a hospital situation but are bad to a recovering addict.
Barbituates are highly addictive and as a sedative, act on the brain in a similar way to alcohol.
You say you knew enough to know it wasn't narcotic. Knowledge is power, and in this case knowledge of all drug types would have been usefull.
Probably not a relapse, I think we know that you don't want to go there again...do you??
Seriously though, be carefull, you've been through enough s*** without going there again.
Have a great day.
Chris
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I wouldn't give away my 3-1/2 years sobriety/clean time over something beyond your control. Beating yourself over it might do it though (from my own experience). Funny, when I had my first 3-1/2 years of sobriety, I thought I could handle one glass of wine. Needless to say, within an hour, the one glass of wine turned into the whole bottle of wine, an 8 pack of beer & mostly all of a bottle of scotch - would have finished the bottle but I passed out. Now, in my mind, that is a "relapse" - but for the grace of God & the fellowship, I got right back into the rooms.
Point is - hang onto your 3-1/2 years with lots of pride & move on forward. Now you know what that med was & you can stay away from it for godd. Love, pat B.
Thamk you all for your words of wisdom. I went to a meeting tonite and shared what happened to me. Even though I made a huge error in judgment (one that i will never repeat) the general thought was I did not have a relapse. I did not willfully, knowingly take a drug that I should not have. I did not go out and get more. Truthfully I would never have known it by any affects, I had none and the only reason I knew was because my case manager called me. I still need to deal with the after affects of my actions. I am not in relapse mode and I certainly was not when I took it. Call me stupid cause thats how I feel. thanks much kim
Chris's info is good educational info. We do need to be aware of wht we are taking. Whether it was a relapse or not,,,,, that was yesterday and this is today,,,, just chalk it up to 'research' and take the next step in your recovery.
amanda
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I would just like to agree with Pat. When I relapsed there was no ?, and I stayed out for 7 years. Stay with the program, just be honest with yourself.
When I go out with my wife to a dance I won't even take pop in a glass from the bar.I go to the canteen and get it in a can.Over kill?Maybe,maybe not, it's my sobriety and not anybody eles.I'm not willing to chance my sobriety on the "trust" that someone will give me "only" what I ask for. Relapse or not?I'd say no.I'd just chaulk this up to a learning experience.And if you need med's get them yourself.Then your safe knowing what your taking.Good luck.
