and beckons me to tell everyone that alcoholics are often young and unseen, as I thought I was...(Im sure most know this already but, just in case). I had two months sober and then I drank last week because i thought that since my tolerance would be low, one time would be harmless. Wrong. I drank like i did before rehab, blacked out, etc...I've since drank every night for about a week, and my withdrawals are back...i need to wake up and realize that being 25 means nothing at a certain point, and that AA isnt going anywhere and my sponsor is and has been a blessing. Talking with him tonight reinforced the belief that my sponsor is someone that i can count on more so than anyone ive ever known. Anyways, i hope this blabbering helps someone in some way..
Hey Dod! Thanks for posting! The disease of alcoholism does not discriminate, it gets all sorts of people and age has no bearing either. Any age this disease destoys life. It talks about raising the bottom in the big book so that young people can realize their disease earlier than the old timers. You have in your post admited complete defeat and that is the start. Now take action. Pray please in the morning and thank you at night. Make as many meetings as you can and JUST DO'NT DRINK! I wish you well! Love, Allison
Allison is right, no discrimintation when it comes to booze.
Our disease continues to progress whether we drink or not. One fact that I had to face.
Meetings are vital for me to remind me that I am STILL an alcoholic. Without that constant reminder my illness will try to convince me on any given day that I can drink normally.
What I was told
Just don't drink. Even if your ass falls off. Pick it up and bring it to a meeting! The rest will come.......
((((hugs)))) I'm so glad you're here.
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Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass... It's about learning to dance in the rain.
Alcoholism doesn't respect age or anything else. It's definitely out to get us if it can.
I, too, had had eight weeks sober and tried just one drink! Within a few days I wasn't even back to my old rate of drinking, it was way worse! It took this alcoholic eighteen months to get back to AA.
Get to as many meetings as you can and share how you are feeling. That was the only thing that worked for me.
Please keep posting and letting us know how things are going for you, won't you?
Take care,
Carol
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Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind. ~Dr. Seuss
Hey Dods, welcome back. Find some sober friends to hang out with. The worst part about this disease is the issolation and the issuing loneliness. We do it to ourselves and then tell oursleves that noboby cares, and drink over it. That's how our disease sets us up. That's why making friends in the program (that will care about us) to pal around with takes get rid of all of that. It took me two miserable years to get that.
StPeteDean- you have posted something that I have identified with more than anything ive ever read, BB or not...
"We do it to ourselves and then tell oursleves that noboby cares, and drink over it."
Thank you.
A month ago, my sponsor put the ball in my court and stopped checking in on me. There is a therapist I have been seeing for a year and there was a bit of miscommunication on both of our parts over an appointment and i left her a message to call me back with a time to meet, and she hasn't called me back in two weeks, which is unusual. Both of these things have triggered the thougts that perhaps these people are tired of me, that they do not care, and I've used that as fuel to isolate myself. I woke up after my last post and called a friend from a nearby town that I'd met in detox. He is sober. He invited me to come over and get dry for a couple days. So I did, and though i slept but a few hours in a couple days and I ate maybe twice, I didn't drink and Im back home now and trying to get over the immense guilt that has settled on me now. I dropped all my classes because of my drinking spree, and my parents know that I relapsed, and half of my friends know, because I stopped answering everyone's phone calls...I thought last night, there has been no time in my life that I have felt more alone than in times like these. Guilt and shame can isolate like few things can i think. It was 430am last night and I couldnt sleep. I went outside for a cigarette and similarly to a bad acid trip I had in high school, I just didn't know who i was anymore, didn't think anyone could tell me either, because they too had been shut out from who i used to be...Anyways, this post turned out to be a lot longer than i expected...Thanks for the replies.
Hey there Its times just as youve described that we need to reach out to our friends in AA. Even people you have never met, somehow end up listening and sharing their experience, strength and hope. We have all been right where you are. Our aa buddies know that and understand that. We just need to go to meetings, share with people, talk to our sponsors. It really is as simple as that!
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