Hi family! I am ashamed to post this message, afraid you all will think less of me, but I have to get honest. I've been in a lot of pain for about a month now. Doc had me on narcotic pain pills. Of course I did not take them as perscribed and they ran out. Well to deal with the pain I substituded the pills for alcohol. And of course it eases the pain during the drinking but when the booze wares off I feel worse than before! Please pray for me, and love me in spite of my bad behavior. Love you all! Allison
Thanks for the honesty, Allison. And good for you for getting honest. You're not the first and I feel certain you won't be the last.
I have such a fear of trading addictions I don't even accept the prescriptions from the doc anymore. I'm learning to self medicate with meditation, massage therapy, ice/heat and prayer. I think it may be working..
Hang in there. Prayers going up for you, hun.
(((hugs)))
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Hey Allison Honesty is great but now get honest with yourself! We love you no matter what.... Are you getting to meetings, working a program!?
Heard alot in the rooms lately about acceptance... I accept today that I am an alcoholic and I need to take action to help me with my addiction. I accept that today I cant drink, need help from this program and a higher power!
I wish you the best. Doll has some great points. Be honest with your doctor that prescribed the pills in the first place. Maybe he has some alternate methods for you to use. I personally HAVE to use this program to get through things like pain and mostly from myself!
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Thanks for your honesty. I can understand wanting/needing to ease the pain after having months of severe neck pain earlier this year. Fortunately, I didn't turn to alcohol, but it would have been very easy for this alcoholic. I have a great doctor and she knows about my alcoholism and fear of swapping addictions. I used herbal remedies and worked on my posture and relaxation techniques.
Allison, I don't think less of you. In fact, I admire your honesty enormously. You have my love and prayers are going up for you. Just hang in there and it will start to get better for you.
Please keep posting and letting us know how things are going for you, won't you? We're all here for you.
Take care,
Carol
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Doll, Lani and Carol, you have NO idea how much your posts mean to me!! I have been isolated ostrisized here f2f. I have been going to f2f meetings here in my area for over 20 years and everyone is sick of me and have given up on me. When I do try to reach out to them I get slapped in the face. If it were not for you wonderful ladies I would be all alone in this world except for my hubby and kitties. I am soooooo lonley! And bored. Please keep loving me and praying for me!! I need you like nobodys business! All of my Love Allison
nique wrote:I have been isolated ostrisized here f2f. ...... Please keep loving me and praying for me!! I need you like nobodys business!
Not sure what f2f you're specifically speaking of so I'll just say this: There are some that get 'upset' when other substances are discussed in AA. So, have you tried NA? Or maybe something like "Celebrate Recovery" ? Dual addictions are not uncommon as we all know, I don't get upset about it, but I do feel it is best to respect the house you're in.
As for the loving you and praying for you, you bet, darlin'. It won't ever stop.
Here's a great BIG cyber ((hug)).
You hang on, it's going to get better.
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Hi Allison, im so sorry you are hurting honey but this alky doesnt think any less of you for what you have done. I can totally relate to the pain. I suffer terribly with joint and muscle problems and last year, before coming back to A.A., I drank to ease the pain and after many months had nearly killed myself with it. The pain that the alcohol caused when coming round from it along with the pain itself was more than I could bear eventually and it got me back to the fellowship.
We have people in our rooms here who have been sober many years but are trying to get off other substances too and they are welcomed with open arms. We also have lots of people who keep going out and testing the waters and the joy of seeing them when they came back is lovely. Nobody is made to feel unwelcome, however many times they dont get it and go back out. One lady I know has been sober 6 years now but for more than ten years she kept going back out and coming back and everybody was so pleased to see her. She eventually got it because she did what she was told and just carried on coming to the meetings.
God bless and my prayers are going up for you. Keep going to meetings and one day God willing you will get it.
