Hi All, I am on day 11 and I am feeling so good. It is so freeing and my body is still adjusting but I know how good I will feel as time goes by.
I took my son to his kidney doctor and his blood pressure is so much better but his counts are not so good for his kidney. But as his blood pressure gets better and he keeps taking care of himself the doctor feels he can maintain them with out them getting worse. So we will pray and see.
We went to eat and I got some errands done. I got home and my youngest son got home and we cut out the carpet by the door that has new floor under it and it helps to keep it clean. It looks much nicer now. And when people come in all I got to do is wipe the floor up.
My neighbor got locked out of her house so she borrowed a big screw driver to get into her home. She had got locked out last week and borrowed it. And one night at around midnight I heard a big noise and it was her locked out and pushing her air conditioner into her home so go through the window.
She is a nice lady and lived here for about 4 months. She is very supportive of my sobriety and told me to go over anytime and talk to her.
I got ready and drove to where the AA meeting was suppose to be and no one was there????? So I waited and as I drove away I saw a man who was at that meeting last night and he was walking away from it also.
A woman I called yesterday for the one I attended last night said they do that and that even last night they may not be there??? A lot of meetings have closed around town that I really liked.
Now they only have abut 9 a week but then she said two of those are closed also. There was a place called the harbor club and people gathered there every day to drink coffee, play cards, eat and smoke cigarettes. And they would have meetings every day a few times a day.
I had worked there for about 3 months about 12 yrs ago. I did not like all the smoke because I do not smoke but I felt like I was contributing. They closed it due to drugs.
And they held a speaker meeting at the high school but the AA people kept smoking on the grounds so they were kicked off it. That was when smoking on school grounds were prohibited big time. A security guard reported them.
They also had them at the hospital and those are done. I got sober this past eight years but I went to counseling at drug and alcohol rehab a few times a week and an intensive group for 8 months also plus a addiction counselor who I saw for 4 yrs 2 times a week.
It was a lot but I had a hard time with the AA and the drugs they were doing. I hate to mention all this but it really is bothering me.
I had helped start a women's group but we only had 2 people join and they would get up and leave so the lady and I allowed it to be open to men also. And they were the druggers. So I turned it over to someone else to help.
And that is when I did all those other things to get sober. Just like in AA when a person stops the help it is easy to drink again and when I quit all of those I started drinking about 4 months later.
I will come up with a plan and there is one at noon at another place that I will check out on Tues. The next place to do meetings is 45 minutes away and I will not be able to go that far and stay an hour each day. It would involve 3 hours each day and I do not have the money for gas nor the time.
But I will not drink and I know this and I will figure something out. I am in a different place and I do not have the abuser in my home anymore who kept pushing me to drink by saying he did not think I was an alcoholic and he would go get the booze if I wanted him to.
I refused for four years and told him to go get a life but this past year after a lot of abuse that escalated I gave in. So I know I can do this and be better for it this time. God bless you all I just needed to get this out. Rosie
So today is day 12? Wow! That is something! For some reason I can't quite pinpoint my first sober day; I was so miserable from the detoxing, and yes, I did do the tapering off; but very quickly. I believe I am on day 7 of absolutely nothing, not even one beer to keep my heart and shakes from killing me. I'm still feeling wonderful, although not quite as exuberant. I'm going to a meeting at noon; then some grocery shopping, household chores...and cooking. It is so wonderful to be able to cook again where it is enjoyable, and not a shakey chore! Hoping the meeting ignites me again; I had some "stinkin' thinkin' yesterday and was almost sure my husband was going to bring home a bottle of wine and worried all day as to whether I could NOT do it. Knowing I'd have to start my sobriety day count all over, I'd convinced myself that I could ignore the wine while he got stupid. He did not bring home any wine for himself and we had a good night working out on our new equipment while watching Fox News!
Hi PJ, I had my last drink on Aug 11th and when I got up on Tues Aug 12th I did not pick up at all so that I consider my sobriety date and that would be 12 days ago. I hope I am counting right.
You had posted the first post that I had seen that it had been a couple of days for you and that was Aug 15th. So it may be Aug 13th for you. I know you and I were in detoxing mode on here together.
You say you feel good but not quite as exurberant. That is okay. You are evening out. We as alcoholics like to be high and when the norm is happening it might feel uncomfortable.
I welcome the norm so much right now. I was feeling unless I was clicking away at something happening all the time something was wrong. But now I have been doing some puttering, my errands, sticking to making my appointments and family obligations and fun with them. And at down times I feel good about those things so I do not feel antsy if I have a pause in life.
I take the pause and let mysef just to BE in the moment. It gives me time to thank my higher power and be grateful. Very restful and lovely.
It is nice that your husband did not bring the wine home. People places and things are harder if the people is your partner and in a place, your home and the thing being wine is not good to be in either the "people" (husband) and the "place" your home.
You may be leading by example for him. And the working out sounds wonderful that you both do it together. You sound like a real nice couple. It is nice to share those things.
Take care PJ. Have a nice day. Keep up the great work. You deserve much happiness sweet girl. Rosie
