Hi All, It is day 6 and I am so grateful. It rained a bit this morning here in Vermont but looks like it will clear up. I love the Vermont weather. Rain, shine, blizzards and all!
I was watching CBS News Sunday Morning and they had a man who died at age 107 and who worked everyday up until he died. He had a clothing store that sold wild west clothing. He drank two shots of whiskey each week until age 90 yrs old.
He had said that the wild west was a state of mind. I loved that story. I missed some of it. I cleaned a house back about 11 yrs ago and the man who owned it was 103 yrs old. He told me stopped drinking at age 92 yrs old. He was like a library to talk to. He died from a fall at age 106 yrs old.
I am just thinking of all the great wonderful things we can experience just by watching a nice show like CBS News Sunday Morning. And memories that are so nice.
I had a hard time to watch TV or enjoy anything and this morning I am so grateful. I do not want to die the way I have been living. Dr. Phil said that you are only a failure after everything is over (something to that effect).
To me it means if I die the way I have lived alcoholically l will have failed. I do not want to do that. And I will do all I can not to.
Hi Rosie, I feel exactly the same way! It's a beautiful day here in TN; the leaves turning ever so slightly! I feel GOOD today; not anxious. I even drove and shopped for a birthday gift for my mother, ran into some friends, just lived like we are supposed too! Food even tastes good. Peggy (day 5)
Hi PJ, I am so happy to hear that. You sound so much stronger today. I am happy for you. We can do it and live our life to its fullest and at the end of the day thank our higher power and get up to a bright day full of hope.
I am taking my middle son who has kidney disease to get his blood work on Tues and then to the hospital on Fri to his specialist. I feel confident that I can plan that without worry of drinking. My oldest son invited me to their Ty Kwon Do tournament on Tues night. Again it feels good not to be taken up with worry about drinking or being hung over.
Tomorrow I am going to my oldest sons to take care of my grand children and help my daughter in law. Again no fear. I got my housework done and am going out to mow and work in the yard today.
Enjoy the freedom of being sober dear soul you deserve it. We all do. Take care, Rosie
Hi Rosie, congratulations on day 6, your doing really well.
I hope you dont mind me sharing this with you or that you dont take it the wrong way but I just had a little giggle to myself when I read your last message.
You mention mowing the lawn in all your messages and whilst I understand that this is weather permitting and health permitting etc it just made me chuckle because when I first got sober 5 years ago, I met my best friend from school at my first AA meeting, I hadnt seen her since we were 15 because she moved out of the area rather unexpectedly. Anyway I stuck with her and went to all the same meetings as her and I had been planning on jet washing my patio. Obviously weather permitting and health permitting (being new in sobriety like you are now) it kept getting put off so everytime I saw my friend and she would ask what I had planned for the next day I would tell her I was planning to jet wash my patio. After a few weeks she said to me "I hope you dont mind me asking Karen but have you got some sort obsession with jetwashing your patio because you do it about 3 times a week", obviously I told her that I hadnt actually done it yet.
I hope you dont mind me sharing that with you Rosie and again well done on 6 days. Keep up the good work.
Hi Rosie, and congratulations!!!!! I am so happy to see you here each day, posting the great hours and days you are collecting, of sobriety. The little things you are starting to enjoy... it is so refreshing to read these posts! It often helps me to get out of a pity-moment, or the grumps here and there, and to focus on the little things, and be grateful. I am just so very happy you are here on the forum!!
(((((hugs))))) Joni
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Hi KLT, I had posted to mow the lawn but it started to rain so I put it off a few times. I finally did mow it today!!! And I washed my patio!!! I rearranged my lawn furniture and other things. It looks real nice.
It was something I had to do and on my list but the rain hit every time I went to get the mower.
I thought about posting that so much after I did it and thought if I do not get out there and mow I will not mention it again. And I had told my friends who I email the same thing and one of my friends also had the same problem but her days to mow were different and when she had sun I had rain and vise versa.
But today we both got to mow and work in the yard and were very happy about it all.
It is comical. I appreciate your humor. I also cleaned the whole house and after working outside I came in and did 110 crunches and tanned in my workout room. So I am getting closer to getting on my work out bench and treadmill.
Easy does it though. But I have courage now and it feel so good.
Hi Joni, The little things are very rewarding and nice. I feel very blessed and at peace already. This forum and the readings have helped me so much to be in a place I had not been in for a long time. Thank you for being here. Rosie
"We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have. "
Good for you Rosie! Funny, we purchased some great workout equipment this weekend! Are assembling it tonight - would love a tanning bed though. BTW, I'd thought I better get on here; I just had a very disappointing email conversation with one of my old marketing clients and she says she is now doing ALL her own work (she is incapable), so I guess she heard what happened with me. It made me mad, I wanted to guzzle something bad, but came on here instead. And it worked. The anger disappated and this is not the end of my life, but a new beginning. Now, back to assembling our workout equipment! Have a great day. ALL of you help so much!
Hi PJ Never a problem without a gift and it will all work out. I like that you got work out equipment. Maybe you can get me going with incentives. I am doing the crunches for the past two days now and it is nice. Plus I walked and today played outside with my grand children for three hours.
Life is great and you will be fine. Quetzel puts up those beautiful things from the Language of Letting Go that will help you a lot. The one today was just wonderful and is one that will carry me through and bring me back home to myself as it says. I miss me.
You sound great. I look forward to getting sober with you. Take care, Rosie
