Hi All, I am on day 5 and feeling so much hope. I do not have the panic and anxiety that I felt when I quit this past year (the many times). You all are God sends to me. This forum is wonderful.
It was hard to feel better physically but this time because of the help with my mental state my body has responded in kind and it is so much better physically to detox. Mind over matter!
It is a beautiful day and my daughter in law and I have some things we have been working on for their budget that is coming along real nice for them. I want to go over and finish up on it today and play with my grand children. My son has today off and that will be nice to have him help a bit to do some calls that he needs to in cancelling credit cards to raise up their credit score.
I am teaching them to fish instead of buying the fish cooking it and cleaning up after. It is very rewarding. I am proud of them.
It also helps me to not feel resentments and also helps me to stop the codependent dynamics. I have worked on stopping those dynamics for the past year and a half and have come a long ways but when I would drink I would hand money out hand over fist.
My habit in the past here has been to get up stay on this computer and then start to get around and do my housework and mow the lawn etc and I would do it but I would also drink. So not everything I wanted to do and to have a full day was happening.
There are so many wonderful day light hours in the summer that I have wasted. But not today! I had to come on and read and post and I am up and at em to do things I have planned and then I am out of here to go enjoy my family for the day. And just being sober.
I have no desire to drink. I do however have a desire to get well and stop the madness I have felt for way too long. Thank you all for being here. Rosie
Keep up the good work rosie! You sound great! Isnt it funny all the little things we missed while drinking!? I forgot how really beautiful it was outside and have loved the sunshine more than ever!!!
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Hi and thank you all for your support. I got up and went into my workout room to take a tan after I put color in my hair. And I took a great shower using sugar for a facial. That is so nice to use sugar. If it gets in my mouth a bit is tastes good and it melts off the face easier than other things I have used.
I fixed up and got in the car to go over. I saw my son tried to call but I just drove over and no one was home. So I went to the lake by them and walked for about 40 minutes around the lake. They live where my sons father and I lived back 35 yrs ago.
So it was nice to take the walk like I used to back when. My son happened to be cutting wood on the lake and I almost walked over to that spot but saw the smoke from the chainsaw and did not want to smell it. And I did not know it was my son.
It was just a great walk!!! I got home and ate a nice lunch. My son called and said my daughter in law had to take the kids somewhere unexpectedly but was going to be home in the morning.
My son does Ty Kwon Do and has many belts and also my 6 yr old granddaughter and my oldest granddaughter just started who is 12 yr old. And now my 4 yr old twin grandsons got a certificate to join for $150 and so they will also be doing it.
I am invited to their tournament Tues night and I feel good that I can committ without fear of drinking or being hungover!!!!
So I am home and will mow my lawn once the sun sets a bit and do some things inside until then. The weather is just beautiful!! It feels good to not be hungover and afraid to enjoy it and to enjoy all my birds and their singing.
I am so blessed.
While I was going over to my sons I had flashes of drinking. I felt I did not want to drink but the habits I have are still with me toward doing things or stopping to see people, places and things that will entail drinking.
I was able to ward those thoughts off by thinking of all I have read here and how much I have done this week to work on not drinking and I felt there is no way I will give this week up.
Hi Sharon, It is granuals like what you use in other things to exfoliate. But it melts off and does not live the granuals behind when you rinse. I like it and it does not cost a fortune. Sometimes I just put it in my hand and wet my fingers and apply it to my face very course like or I use a bit of oil of olay and mix it together and then I rub it in circles on my face.
It works like a charm and leaves the face feeling real nice.
I am feeling so blessed today and even after 5 days of detox I feel weak and off balance at times. It is odd to see so clear though compared to the days of drinking. And I am allowing the pain instead of pushing it away.
Things like the sugar are a treat to me. Give it a try! Take Care Rosie
Hi Rosie and congratulations on 5 days, keep up the good work girl.
I have just got home from a meeting and it is absolutely pouring down here, we all got wet through just from walking to our cars. We were talking about the weather though and how bad it is this year with the rain and cold and how we missed the last few summers through drinking. An old timer told us that the summers have actually been this bad over the last few years. Its amazing what we do and dont remember isnt it.
Like I say, keep up the good work and keep coming back and letting us know how you are doing.
I live in Vermont and it has been rainy but beautiful this summer! I enjoyed much more of it than I did for the past eight years due to an abusive man who did not like me outside so it made it hard to go outside.
I did not drink for a little over 6 yrs of this relationship total but I still did not enjoy the outdoors due to feeling nervous about him getting upset.
And then I drank and got outside a lot last summer and canoed and went up to the mountains to build bonfires and sit by a beautiful brook but I was drunk! So this is really the first summer in a long long time that I have half enjoyed.
But now I plan to enjoy the rest sober!!! It was a beautiful day today. And the walk I took was real nice.
I know what you mean about what we miss. It does not make sense. I remember going out in blizzards to go drink! And freezing cold ice storms! This was about 29 yrs ago or so and I cannot believe I would be out in such cold.
It is like seeing things for the first time while coming out of this alcohol fog. Take care and thank you for the support. Rosie
